baby..

I should be sleeping ryte now.. I know I do. But somehow I feel the need to write.. after long time I didn’t write…

Another paper is coming. Gladly I finished pure math 3, now I have statistics before I’m free from mathematics. Its not like mathematics is that hard, I used to love math, but as soon as I started A2, math is so hard for me, and I start to dislike it… I guess now, im doing ok, even not so good. I’ve tried pass year papers, and I hope that makes me well prepared…. Hurm.. wish so!

Going back to collage tomorrow I guess. Have to move on.. time never stop, it continue to tick even when u don’t want it to. I guess we just have to keep on with the speed. Sorry Wen Xin, I lost track of counting the day until freedom. Staying away from ktt give me a mirage of another world with no study… but,im so happy that I still study and realize that I need to study. Its hard to focus but alhamdulillah, I manage…

I went to watch movie at Seremban 2.. High School Musical 3. I like it the most out of the other 2, the cariography is damn nice! I like….

Last Sunday, my aunt did open house at her place. Was ok, but super tiring coz have to arrange and rearrange back the house. The most exciting part that I love soooo much is another aunt of me came, she is 8-months-pregnant. I love to put my hand on her tummy…. Then I can feel the baby movements. I like so much! My aunty laughed at me everything I go excited when I felt the baby move… I love the feeling that I felt that time…

Everyone is sooo far, and im searching for a shoulder to cry. I shed tears, where im alone. Its not that im alone, but friends are far and busy, so does my love. I wish for one moment, nothing else matter, and I can sit there and share that moment with… its too hard… for now..

Im crapping… again… heh. Write again later~

water defficiency

since thursday, sepang had water shortage due to the break down of 3 major pipes. who's to blame? who ever so 'clever' korek the sand and hit that pipe! its hard meh living without water coz we didnt store any water as the water shortage was so sudden. super depressing

but the worse was on saturday. SYABAS didnt send any water to our collage for the whole day, by the end ofthe day, collage decide to bring all the student outside to finr water. so i brought down my bottle and wait as they said now going d. but i have to wait for an hour before we start the 'water hunting'. guess what? the driver brought us soooo far, until R&R Seremban! only there he told us go take water, bath and eat. why the heck didnt tell earlier, i just brought water bottle only. not even a penny! so, i waste one hour waiting there in front of KFC! that time my hand aedy starting to hurt...

ok, at 1135 pm, the bus arrive to pick us up. but then the driver said we have to waot for the second trip as well.. damn.1st trip aedy pack, imagine how to stuff everyone inside, with all the pail and bottle. plus, the second trip just arrived meh, have to wait for them to fill up water first.. fine... then it took almost an hour to arrange all the pail at the storage compartment below the bus.. at that time, my hand aedy luka2, and im damn tired......

at last, we head back to collage, only the FIRST trip!, at 0040. that time i feel like i wanna cry aedy.. we arrive at 0120 and now, i have to bring my heavy bottles upstair..... huhu.... i settle down and slept at 0200... super tired.... just for a pail of water....


but im super mad, coz on Sunday, SYABAS sent the water twice! why.... didnt send on saturday, can it cover our miserable saturday by sending it twice one the next day? we need water everyday la...... =(

alhamdulillah, the water is back today. im soooo happy... after 4 days surviving without water... ok, moral of the story, i think i learnt a lot from these terrible experience. most of the student experienced it aedy as the live in hostel during secondary school. this is my first time to has to go thro this at hostel. but still, it help me to become a better person, not much, but at least a little improvement.... and i believe, 10 years from now, we all be laughing when remembering these experience.. i hope so! hehehe..

till then, i need to pray, have my lunch, then back to PURE MATH... huhu...

connected??

.1st and 2nd.
why why why. everyone still look at me when i have nothing to do with that person nemore? can u guys just believe when i say 'it past aedy', take it as it is? why have to doubt me for something u guys have no idea at all about it? im sick of been linked to person that i have no respect at all toward them. im tired to pretand everything is ok when u guys ask about them. cant u see that we r not friend nemore???! i hate her!~ she hurt me the way nobody can imagine of, she is the one who rip the friendship apart!


.3rd.
my mind still cant get around the idea that panda is away aedy. why why why. almost three months super closed, suddenly have to adapt to such a change, quite hard. my handphone now didnt sing for his sms, nor his call, nor anything.... so sad. i know, he said, even he left me in malaysia, but he wont ever forget me. but i cant help feeling l e f t b e h i n d n f o r g o t t e n. heh, btw, thanks for teman-ing me till i sleep every night!~ hehe..

.4th.
does the silent mean anything to them? i believe not. heh, coz i, myself didnt care, so why should they.im super mad at u for making me mad at u. u make me depressed. huhu...

.5th.
pre a2 result! very bad. haha.. expected aedy, but still quite dissapointed.. how, wif this kind of preparation im gonna sit for a2? nadia, im sure u wanna fly. so start work hard from now!

apa lagi lah yg daku merapu inih.... nowadays always feel tired.. y eh? and why why why. i have diarrhea everyday.... dont like~ ok, need to do math! till then~

why...

Salam eid fitri to everyone.. how my raya eh? good i guess... but too short, been back to collage on 6th October, and since then, i didnt feel like its raya anymore.. its feel like normal day, and when my aunty ask 'tak pergi beraya mana2 ke?' then i feel sad.. wuaa.. its still raya and i didnt feel it.. plus next year, insyaAllah my raya is in inidia... huhu... so sad... why...


i'm too lazy to update actually, not in a good mood nowadays.. lots had happen that making me depressed...

exam.. wua... a2 is coming and i didnt prepare anything yet. i donnow how im gonna answer the papers that coming in one weeks time... huhu... i have to stop wasting my time and start studying... but somehow im too lazy to do that...... oh my...

why?why?why? l e f t b e h i n d n f o r g o t t e n

lots more things actually, but im not that cruel to mention all of it, coz its too much, and its too harsh.... huhuhu..

btw, my friend, thanks for being so patient in layan-ing me.. i wonder how u possess that kind of understanding coz even me, myself, im so easy to loss my temper, even to u my dear.. so so sorry... huhu.. im being a bad friend, arent i... huhu. thanks again! love u always!~

cant wait, 39 days to freedom!~