Monday, December 05, 2011

heart deals

the way Allah bestows His Love upon us :

Say, "If you should love Allah , then follow me, [so] Allah will love you and forgive you your sins. And Allah is Forgiving and Merciful." (3:31)

Indeed, those who have believed and done righteous deeds - the Most Merciful will appoint for them affection. (19:96)

When Allah loves a person, He calls out to Jibreel: ‘Allah loves So and so,’ so Jibreel loves him. Then Jibreel calls out to the people of heaven, ‘Allah loves So and so, so love him.’ So the people of heaven love him and he finds acceptance on earth" [Al-Bukhaari (3209) and Muslim (2637)]

how? another Love that He bestows upon us, His LOVE LETTER to us. He guides us every single way :D

who are those whom Allah loves?
1. the charitable
"...and do good (to others) ; surely Allah loves the doers of good" (2:195)

2. the repentant
"...Truly Allah loves those who turn to Him in repentance” (2:222)

3. the righteous (Taqwa)
“...Surely, Allah loves al – Muttaqeen. " (9:4)

4. the believer ( Al-Mutawakileen)
“...Allah loves those who put their trust in Him.” (3:159)

5. Al-Muqsiteen (Justice)
“...Verily, Allah loves those who acts justly.” (5:42)

6. the patient ( As-Sabirun)
“...And Allah loves As-Sabirun (the patient).” (3:146)

7. the struggler
" Truly Allah loves those who fight in His Cause in battle array, as if they were a solid cemented structure. " (61:4)

He, The Almighty, has unlimited Love . thus, we should (anyone in their right mind) work to gain His Love. for nothing is more important than being loved by Allah.


p/s lets rush towards His Love ;)

Sunday, December 04, 2011

the tie

picture credit to

day in day out, we see a lot of human wearing fancy tie to work, to school, for meeting, for leisure etc. various color, design, material, even differing length and tying technique. with simple yet complicated steps, people tie their ties around their neck, wear them with pride.

on the other hand, we can see iman as a tie. worn by people each day, with various strength, attitude, differing level and faith. we can't see literally one's iman like their tie, but if we look deeper, we can see how people wears it. so, what is iman?

Among the things which Jibril asked the Prophet was: “Tell me about 'Iman (Belief).”

The Prophet sallallahu ^alayhi wa sallam said:

"أَنْ تُؤْمِنَ باللهِ وَمَلاَئِكَتِهِ وَكُتُبِهِ وَرُسُلِهِ واليَوْمِ الآخِرِ وَتُؤْمِنَ بالقَدَرِ خَيْرِهِ وَشَرِّهِ"

It means: “To believe in Allah, His Angels, His Revealed Books, His Messengers, the Last Day, and to believe in destiny (qadar)--both good and evil.” Narrated by Muslim.

notice the way Rasulullah explain what is iman? He replied in order of priority, the most important matters of the belief.

the word IMAN is used in two ways :
a) to refer to the aqidah of the muslim, which never goes up and down but is constant
b) to refer to the motivation, or rather, the awareness one has of Allah in their life. This goes up and down with emotion/environment

so, with daily routine, people around, our iman goes up and down like the tie tied short and long. which at time, worries us. how are we calling ourself a true muslim when our iman is like a roller coaster ride? hold on a minute and lets reflect back thro history, even the sahabah experienced this.

From Hanzalah al-Usayyidee, radiyallahu `anhu, who said:

“Abu Bakr met me and asked: How are you O Hanzalah? I replied: Hanzalah is guilty of hypocrisy! He said: Free is Allah and far removed from all defects! What are you saying? I said: When we are with Allah’s Messenger, sallallahu `alayhi wa sallam, and he reminds us of the Fire and Paradise it is as if we are seeing it with our own eyes. Then when we depart from Allah’s Messenger, sallallahu `alayhi wa sallam, to attend to our wives, children and our business, then much of this slips from our minds. Abu Bakr said: By Allah we also experience the same. So I went with Abu Bakr until we entered upon Allah’s Messenger, sallallahu `alayhi wa sallam. I said: When we are with you, you remind us of the Fire and of Paradise and it is as if we are seeing it with our eyes. Then when we depart from you and attend to our wives, children and business then much of this slips from our minds. So Allah’s Messenger, sallallahu `alayhi wa sallam, said: By Him in whose Hand is my soul if you remained continually as you are when you are with me and in remembering (Allah) then the angels would shake hands with you upon your beds and upon your roads. But O Hanzalah, (there is) a time for this and a time for that, (there is) a time for this and a time for that, (there is) a time for this and a time for that.

[Muslim, no. 6623]

as a human, as an insaan, we will always bound to this. As Rasulullah said 'Al-Iman Yazid wa Yankus'. but that is not an excuse for us just to let surrounding determine where and how is our iman. look how the sahabah were so worried when they realized it. how concern they are about their iman. the sahabah placed an amazing example on this matter. flip thro their history, and make note of what we can do to improve ourself.

day by day we should notice what increase and what decrease our iman. and at times we might be lost in the daily routine that we forgot to check how our ties is worn. the best way to recharge our iman is by reading His Love Letter :)

The believers are only those who, when Allah is mentioned, their hearts become fearful, and when His verses are recited to them, it increases them in faith; and upon their Lord they rely - 8:2

with more knowledge and iman, we should be more humble and strive for Him. be careful of the disease of heart - takabbur. we should remember nothing is definite for us. we can't confidently declare that 10 years from now, we will still be in iman, and we will still be working for Him. for takabbur is a sign of iman is decreasing.

And never say of anything, "Indeed, I will do that tomorrow," Except [when adding], "If Allah wills." And remember your Lord when you forget [it] and say, "Perhaps my Lord will guide me to what is nearer than this to right conduct." 18 : 23-24

so my dear friends, lets take few minutes out of our day, try to check our iman today. is our iman today is sick, or is it healthy? is it dieing or pink in health? lets recharge our iman towards Him, and always make duaa and pray for Allah grant us everlasting iman, today, tomorrow, till the day we close our eyes. pray to Him as He is The Almighty, The Creator, as He who hold our heart.

أللهم يا مقلب القلوب ثبت قلوبنا على دينك وعلى طاعتك

p/s lets always check what 'tie' we are wearing, lets make sure it is as colourful as Islam, as wonderful as Iman, and as neat as Ihsan

Sunday, November 27, 2011

life lesson

have you ever wonder
when you look up to the sky
tracing the fluffy cloud
what is there beyond?

sometimes, we are too occupied with our so-called the biggest problem in this world. but once you take time out from your own shell, and look around. you will be shocked. and then you will feel that ache in your heart for you had realized how selfish you are.

spend a day with those unfortunates. you'll realize that your problems will just melt away seeing their struggle to pay for a pint of milk. you will feel you have nothing to complain when you start doing math in your head for 6 people yet there is only one bed in the house. you can't remember what you were so envious about when you remember the 2 clothes they wore for those 5 times you met them, are all hanged on the wall.

let them teach you the meaning of life, and the meaning of living the life. and let those hardship and hunger be the tarbiyah you need, the tarbiyah you ought to be taking in. don't count the tears you shed put of self-pity, but try to count the smiles you impart on them

be thankful of what you have, be grateful of what you had been given and be gracious to those in need.

p/s angin berzikir kencang-kencang. mari jealous kepada si angin.

Sunday, November 06, 2011

just no

no listening to my dad's takbir
no trying to figure out what is the menu for the day
no helping my mommy in the kitchen
no staying up late to iron all 10 sets of baju raya
no waking up early and lining up for shower
no rushing to get ready in time for mosque
no shaking hands, hugging and apologizing
no walking together for prayer
no praying in the same saff
no familiar faces of neighbors
no arguing whether to stay home or follow my parents to raya around the kampung
no sweating serving people and handing duit raya for kids
no hassling to pack everything for journey to Kedah and KL
no fighting for the middle seat with sisters
no staying awake throughout the journey accompanying my dad driving
no stopping at R&R as family and have that yummy ikan patin
no long tiring journey against the traffic flow
no excitement to meet aunties and uncles
no counting and comparing our duit raya totals
no eating yummy food until can barely walk
no reluctant feeling to leave KL and go back to Perlis
no joy, laughter and love with them..

just tears on the 6th eid away from home....
O Allah, protect them with Your Love and shower them with Your Grace ♥

Wednesday, November 02, 2011

irritated to inanimates

what a day. i know i know. it sounds so spoilt, but honestly He holds my feeling and im sure He has a great plan by putting that feeling in me :)

was very congested in the classroom, and the lecturer been teaching exceeding his time limit. at one point i felt like vomiting because of the closed space. the heat starting to suffocate me and trigger that 'irritate-switch' within me. anything touching my face starting to raise my anger, my normal sandals starting to feel too tight, my arm socks making me so mad.
sound a bit crazy right? hihi.

right after he went out of class, i rushed out to go back to my room. everything i saw along the way is boiling my head. dash into my room, start taking off the sandal, the arm socks, the labcoat at an instance!

but the great part is, as i sit by my window, open it wide, then sitting by the awesome green tree, with His love-letter, the sakinah comes overwhelm me and i feel so connected to His creations. masyaAllah, even i didn't hear their zikr literally, but somehow felt it :)

note to self : make sure to take time to listen to the zikr around (59:1)

Subhanallah, Alhamdulillah, Allahuakbar!

Friday, October 28, 2011

mereka itu

Sebiru hari ini, birunya bagai langit terang benderang
Sebiru hati kita, bersama di sini

Seindah hari ini, indahnya bak permadani taman surga
Seindah hati kita, walau kita kan terpisah

Bukankah hati kita telah lama menyatu
Dalam tali kisah persahabatan ilahi
Pegang erat tangan kita terakhir kalinya
Hapus air mata meski kita kan terpisah
Selamat jalan teman
Tetaplah berjuang
Semoga kita bertemu kembali
Kenang masa indah kita
Sebiru hari ini

Seindah hari ini, indahnya bak permadani taman surga
Seindah hati kita, walau kita kan terpisah

p/s Allah memilih mereka2 yg hebat utk memegang tanggungjawab ini. aku mahu menjadi seperti mereka juga
pp/s rindu mereka..

Thursday, October 06, 2011

mereka yang hebat

" aku tidak mahu menjadi yang melihat, aku mahu menjadi yang dilihat "
Dan mengapa kamu tidak membelanjakan harta benda kamu pada jalan Allah? - Padahal Allah jualah yang mewarisi langit dan bumi (serta segala isinya). Tidaklah sama di antara kamu, orang-orang yang membelanjakan hartanya serta turut berperang sebelum kemenangan (Nabi menguasai Makkah). Mereka itu lebih besar darjatnya daripada orang-orang yang membelanjakan hartanya serta turut berperang sesudah itu. Dan tiap-tiap satu puak dari keduanya, Allah janjikan (balasan) yang sebaik-baiknya. Dan (ingatlah), Allah Maha Mendalam PengetahuanNya akan apa yang kamu kerjakan.
Siapakah orangnya yang mahu memberikan pinjaman kepada Allah, sebagai pinjaman yang baik (ikhlas) supaya Allah melipat-gandakan balasannya? Dan (selain itu) ia akan beroleh pahala yang besar!
harta bertimbun2, bukan hak kita. tetapi semata2 pinjaman Allah. tetapi, dengan harta yg hanya dipinjamkan tu kpd kita, kita masih punya keberanian utk kedekut. in another way, macam selfish kan? Allah bagi kat kita harta supaya kita guna ke jalan kebaikan. harta bukan kita punya pun, tanak share dgn orang lain. selfish kan? maybe jugak kita tidak nampak mengapa perlu diberi harta yg penat2 cari kepada sesuatu yg subjective. tapi kan Allah dah ceritakan ganjaran2nye?

seronok, bila memberi dengan ikhlas, atas inisiatif sendirik, then kita nampak hasilnya. cubalah memberi. serious, perasaan tu hanya pemberi je tahu ;) tp dalam ayat ni, Allah specifically bgtahu reward dia :) bila kita meminjamkan pinjaman yg baik, Allah ckp Allah akan pulangkan dengan belipat ganda. imagine kita bagi pinjam pada kawan kita rm100, and kawan kita pulankan rm1000 (bukan riba ye) kan ke seronok? mesti kita nak pinjamkan lagi kan? so begitulah kita patutnya dgn menginfakkan harta kita kepada Allah. kejarlah ganjaran yg berlipat ganda tu, pahala melimpah2 yang mulia :)

sebelum pape, please lihat harta itu lebih daripada maknanya. harta yang dimaksudkan bukan setakat wang sahaja, tetapi masa kita, tenaga kita itu juga adalah harta. so jgnlah disebabkan miskin, itu menjadi alasan utk tidak berinfak ;)

merujuk pada ganjaran yang lebih kepada penginfakkan sebelum pembukaan kota Mekah, contoh yang sye dapat fikir di sini ialah rumah :) bila kita nak bina rumah idaman kita, belanjanya mesti baaaanyaaak kan? tambah2 skrg kos sume barang yg sgt mahal. so nak bina rumah itu, belanja yang diperlukan sgt bnyk. compare pulak lepas rumah dah dibina, tinggal nak maintain je. so belanjanye kurang dari nak membina kan? so begitulah juagk dlm dakwah dan tarbiyah. pabila kita nak menginfakkan harta (masa, tenaga, duit) utk memulakan dan membangunkan DnT tu, lebih tinggi darjatnya kerana harta yang diperlukan itu lebih banyak daripada utk maintain DnT yang sudah dibina oleh orang sebelum itu. so, buat mereka yang sedang bersusah payah menginfak membina DnT dimana2, ambillah ayat ini sebagai penaik semangat and pemujuk hati supaya sentiasa kuat ;)

(Ingatlah) ketika engkau melihat (pada hari kiamat): orang-orang yang beriman, lelaki dan perempuan, cahaya (iman dan amal soleh) mereka bergerak cepat di hadapan mereka dan di sebelah kanan mereka (semasa mereka berjalan, serta dikatakan kepada mereka): "Berita yang mengembirakan kamu pada hari ini, (kamu akan beroleh) Syurga yang mengalir di bawahnya beberapa sungai, kekal kamu di dalamnya; yang demikian itu adalah kemenangan yang besar".
(Ingatlah) semasa orang-orang munafik, lelaki dan perempuan (yang sedang meraba-raba dalam gelap-gelita pada hari kiamat), berkata kepada orang-orang yang beriman: "Tunggulah kami, biarlah kami mengambil sedikit dari cahaya kamu". (Lalu) dikatakan (kepada mereka secara mengejek-ejek): "Baliklah kamu ke belakang, kemudian carilah cahaya (di sana)", serta diadakanlah di antara mereka (yang beriman dan yang munafik itu) sebuah tembok yang mempunyai pintu, di sebelah dalamnya mengandungi rahmat (Syurga dan nikmat), dan di sebelah luarnya, dari situ terdapat (neraka) dan azab seksa.
(Pada saat itu) mereka (yang munafik) menyeru orang-orang yang beriman (sambil berkata): "Bukankah kami bercampur gaul dengan kamu (di dunia dahulu)?" Orang-orang yang beriman menjawab: "Benar! Akan tetapi kamu telah membinasakan diri kamu (dengan perbuatan munafik) dan kamu telah menunggu-nunggu (kebinasaan umat Islam), dan kamu pula ragu-ragu (terhadap perkara-perkara ugama) serta kamu diperdayakan oleh angan-angan kosong (untuk mencapai maksud kamu), sehinggalah datangnya (maut) yang ditetapkan oleh Allah (kepada kamu). Dan (selain itu), kamu pula diperdayakan oleh bisikan Syaitan dengan (pengampunan) Allah (semata-mata dan melupakan azabNya).
seperti yang diceritakan dalam ayat2 Allah itu, fikir2kan golongan mana yang kita nak. mahu menjadi golongan yang bercahaya2 (seperti glitter2 ;) ) itu, atau yang melihat sahaja. klu kat dunia ni pun, kita mesti jealous tgok klu orang bawak kereta berkilat cantik, kita bawak kereta kodok je kan? tak nak la nnt kat akhirat kita hanya punya perasaan jealous tu. biarlah kita jealous di dunia supaya kita dimotivasi utk menjadi golongan yang bercahaya2 tu insyaAllah :)

golongan munafik, hanya meminta2 cahaya itu dari golongan bercahaya2 itu, and bila diberitahu 'kembalilah kamu and carilah sendiri cahaya itu'. tp time tu, bolehke pulang2 kembali ke dunia nak cari balik cahaya tu?? once kat akhirat, tak boleh kan patah2 balik. so bila diberitahu begitu, mesti kecewa dan hampa sbb sekarang, meraka tak dapat kelebihan dan ganjaran Allah itu kan?

so, nasihat buat diri sndiri mostly, lets try our best to own the glitters and the bright light on that day, and never let us to be sad there.


Wednesday, October 05, 2011


lately i'm a loyal rider on emotion roller coaster. may be this is the test He puts forward for me to realize how strong i am. may be this is the sign He light up for me to realize where i should go. maybe this is the air He send for me to realize how to breath.

very very last minutes decision. but i knew what i needed to do, when i needed to do it. just a day before, bought the bus ticket, and puff, i disappeared from Belgaum and turn up in Bangalore. the moment i saw her, my heart dropped. at that very moment, i realize we both needed the strength. we both are as fragile as bubbles. those words, the loves and the sleep in together, verified by the blooming pink lava. mashaAllah, what i got from the short visit is indescribable by words. dear, im not going to write much here about our time together, but what i could say is, im soooo thankful for this nikmat, and endless thanks to Allah for this friendship. i hope those love notes i left for you will keep you strong, and my love for you never stop even with hundreds miles between us!

alhamdulillah, was a great trip, emotionally and spiritually. sorry to those i never get the chance to inform about me coming over to Mangalore, but i never expect there is so many familiar hearts there, and familiar hearts waiting for my news. love you all, and im glad to see all of you. it is a blessing to get to spend more time to nurture ukhuwah with my two dearest friends here, and a lot more from other place. and shocking enough, i met my cousin there! didnt know he was coming. was a great catch up after more than 2 years we never meet, felt so far away as family.

alhamdulillah alhamdulillah alhamdulillah. my emotion is still growing and i hope these journeys help me, hope i manage to pick up all the seed He placed for me.

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Kerana seorang wanita

Di akhirat nanti ada 4 golongan lelaki yg akan ditarik
masuk ke neraka oleh wanita. Lelaki itu adalah mereka
yg tidak memberikan hak kpd wanita dan tidak menjaga
amanah itu. Mereka ialah:

1. Ayahnya

Apabila seseorang yg bergelar ayah tidak mempedulikan anak2 perempuannya didunia. Dia tidak memberikan segala keperluan agama seperti mengajar solat,mengaji dan sebagainya Dia membiarkan anak2 perempuannya tidak menutup aurat. Tidak cukup kalau dgn hanya memberi kemewahan dunia sahaja. Maka dia akan ditarik ke neraka oleh anaknya.

(p/s; Duhai lelaki yg bergelar ayah, bagaimanakah hal keadaan anak perempuanmu sekarang?. Adakah kau mengajarnya bersolat & saum?..menutup aurat?.. pengetahuan agama?.. Jika tidak cukup salah satunya, maka bersedialah utk menjadi bahan bakar neraka jahannam.)

2. Suaminya

Apabila sang suami tidak mempedulikan tindak tanduk isterinya. Bergaul! bebas di pejabat, memperhiaskan diri bukan utk suami tapi utk pandangan kaum lelaki yg bukan mahram. Apabila suami mendiam diri walaupun seorang yg alim dimana solatnya tidak pernah bertangguh, saumnya tidak tinggal, maka dia akan turut ditarik oleh isterinya bersama-sama ke dlm neraka.

(p/s; Duhai lelaki yg bergelar suami, bagaimanakah hal keadaan isteri tercintamu sekarang?. Dimanakah dia? Bagaimana akhlaknya? Jika tidak kau menjaganya mengikut ketetapan syari'at, maka terimalah hakikat yg kau akan sehidup semati bersamanya di 'taman' neraka sana .)

3. Abang-abangnya

Apabila ayahnya sudah tiada,tanggungjawab menjaga maruah wanita jatuh ke bahu abang-abangnya dan saudara lelakinya. Jikalau mereka hanya mementingkan keluarganya sahaja dan adiknya dibiar melencong dari ajaran Islam,tunggulah tarikan adiknya di akhirat kelak.

(p/s; Duhai lelaki yg mempunyai adik perempuan, jgn hanya menjaga amalmu, dan jgn ingat kau terlepas... kau juga akan dipertanggungjawabkan diakhirat kelak...jika membiarkan adikmu bergelumang dgn maksiat... dan tidak menutup aurat.)

4. Anak2 lelakinya

Apabila seorang anak tidak menasihati seorang ibu perihal kelakuan yg haram disisi Islam. bila ibu membuat kemungkaran mengumpat, memfitnah, mengata dan sebagainya...maka anak itu akan disoal dan dipertanggungjawabkan di akhirat kelak....dan nantikan tarikan ibunya ke neraka.

FB Amirul Mujahidin

reminder for me and for whomever He let this post touch their heart, lets reflect on ourself. do not let our jahiliyah, ignorance or negligence cost our beloved daddy, husband, brothers and sons the hell fire. do not drag them to that horrible place. always ask Allah for forgiveness (as we are INSAN who cant escape from mistake), be the best muslimah you can be, and always try your best to be a better muslim insyaAllah!

ya Allah, forgive me for all my negligence, my ignorance and my sins. I love my dad, my brothers, my future husband and sons too much. forgive me O Allah... :S

Monday, September 12, 2011


si dia pulang ke rumah dari menghantar kawan pulang
menarik kerusi mahu menyejukkan diri di bawah penghawa dingin
di saat badan mencecah kerusi
belum sempat peluh menitis kering
bergema laungan suci itu
'abg pegi solat dulu ye, nanti kita sambung semula'
bicara si dia kepada adiknya
dan lantas si dia melangkah ke surau

itulah SYABAB yang dinanti
itulah ﺍﻟﺮﺟﻞ yang kucari

p/s masih di perjalanan menjadi النسآء yang hebat buat ﺍﻟﺮﺟﻞ yang hebat, biiznillah. mari bersama-sama!

Tuesday, September 06, 2011


Ya Allah
di mana letak sabarku
tika mana hati mudah benar mengeluh
pada sikit-sikit ranjau di dunia

Ya Robbi
di mana sandaran sabarku
bila mana hati ini resah gelisah
tidak yakin pada janji-janjiMu

Ya Muhaimin
di mana pasak kesabaranku
tatkala hati asyik gundah gelana
demi manusia2 yang menghampiriku

Ya Aziz
di mana kekuatan sabarku
pabila hati ini tidak patuh
tidak kuat berujiankan nikmat

Ya Rahim
di mana erti sabarku
jika hati tidak tetap
dalam duri dakwah dan tarbiyah

Ya Matin Ya Qawiyy Ya Sobuur
bantulah aku
perkuatkanlah sabarku
perteguhkanlah sabarku
dan berikan aku sabar yg diredhaiMu