my 1.5 years

i dont know what brought it up, but today I'm dragged back to that memory. wow, come to think of it, that was a lot of tears. haih.

i was bad back then.
was totally a different person
one mistake that I let it ruin my whole time there.
one mistake that haunt me through careless tongues

regardless of the tears and pain
i learnt a lot.
how to be a human
how to behave
how to be strong
how to be better
still lots to improve, but alhamdulillah alhamdulillah alhamdulillah

those that i somehow hurt, misbehaved or simply anything
my sincere apology.

to those who helped me thro it
apartment depan that always welcome me
my parents who always been there on the other side of dreadful phone calls
the frequent visit to my grandparents and relatives
my sincere gratitude :)

browsing thro my folder, some pictures of the past...

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

firework

 - no picture because brain is all over the wall -

when you stuff 500 pages in 3 hours, you will definitely get a headache!

and when will you realize that? when it takes you another hour to finish the next 100 pages, and 2 hours to finish the next 50 pages lol

robbuna yusahhil :)

wasp

WASP, not whatsapp ye :P

Dear wasp,
thanks for stinging me today. you are such a small creature, yet masyaAllah, the pain you cause was mind blowing! I wonder what I did that made you angry at me, but I'm sorry if I did something that bug you.

Sincerely,
Swollen little finger.

*okay, am I losing it? heh.*

kata ayah, takpe lah sakit. Allah nak bagi kurang dosa tu.

alhamdulillah :)

and somehow, it made me think. Little thing -> big impact. Oh I so want to be that little human who can contribute a wonderful positive impact for Islam, biiznillah!

*miss mom much*

an eye for an eye

thinking that no one reads this blog, I sometimes tend to rumble a lil too much, or tend to neglect it to the extent of a haunted house *gulp*

exam again next week, and well, sick again. is it becoming a trend now? last time during 1st internal exam, I got fever and cold. and today I woke up with a sore throat... please oh please Allah, give me health and most importantly blessed health :)

alhamdulillah, I'm not that stressed out with all. I can't say I'm not stressed, but it is more under control that how I used to be for the past 3 years heh! thanks mom and dad (and everyone) who always pray for me :)

p/s yes, I am a family person. I'm sorry if I annoy any of you with it, but can't and won't change who I am for anyone else, but Him :)

Normally, I don't get angry easily, and I seldomly ever lose my temper. but sadly last week (astaghfirullah) the bad side of me showed up and I lashed out on people (not random people okay) Allah! Forgive me for my outburst. I need to nurture the patience within me more indeed!

 And hasten to forgiveness from your Lord and a garden as wide as the heavens and earth, prepared for the righteous. Who spend [in the cause of Allah ] during ease and hardship and who restrain anger and who pardon the people - and Allah loves the doers of good

 3:133-134

*breath in breath out* so Nadia, please be good to yourself and to others, always! Allah LOVES the doers of good ;)

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