homeworks..

results r out!! n what shall i say.... ALHAMDULILLAH.. who would ever thought i will get this great result... myself aso like cant believe it... AS+A2=xy+4a <-- hahaha, equation yg tidak diterima oleh cambridge.. anyway, really, Thanks Allah for this great gift.. i cant ask for better...

and on the same day, i did the computerized test for L license.. i got 49 over 50!! wahaha... what wif all the nervous be4 the test.. wait like for an hour, wif heart beating like a mad atom... hehehe. its been a while since the last time i sit for exam, so kinda forget how its feel like.. hahaha.. but i think the Qs r quite okay, all i need in order to prepare is the collection of soalan n jawapan that provided by the drivin school *thanks to Hani, who gave me the tips! ;)* thanks Allah again for giving me a good memory that day... so i manage to answer the Qs, except one question which doesnt have in the question compilation book, so im not surprise i got that one wrong.. hahaha.. n i complete the test in 14 minutes!! hehehe... proud of myself for being a permandu berhemah *clapping hand* perasan lak aku nih... =P

owh, next week gonna get my L d.... sooo happy, even its not as soon as i expected.. coz i think i wont hv enuff time to complete till P b4 return to coll.. *sobsob* but what to do.... too much holidays, so had to delay the process..... hehehe...

regarding my holiday, i mean the long break, lets review my aims and what i achieve so far.....
1. have a wonderful holiday, spend as much time as i can wif my family = achieved wif flying colors! hahaha.. too much i think.. the places i'd went wif my family, and the places going soon aso. thanks much dad!!! =
2. cook and bake more, learn aso = i think this one is okay. i manage to try new things, and did some baking and cooking for my family.. pizza, puding susu, mashed potato *thanks rafika for the recipe!*, cream utk creampuff *i think thats the name of that thing.. haha.. but didnt do the creampuff coz no eggs, so just did the cream*, sambal belacan *i just learnt how exactly to do it.. haha. b4 this i can use 'i dont know how' as alasan, now cannot d*, ikan sweet sour, ikan steam asam *yummy*, daging masak kicap wif potato *i love this so much!*. im planning to do cobbler next, but confuse wif the correct recipe.. anyone?? =
3. go jogging at least once a week = this one i failed completely. didnt even once go out jogging... haha. funny is, i didnt even really go out of my house to my own compound.. ngeee... but truly, if i go jog near the village here, the view in the morning is absolutely stunning.....but still, i didnt go jog haha! ampun ye panda.. ngeee =
4. take driving license = on the way. but i dont think gonna finish b4 go back to 'beloved' ktt.. can sambung what.. hehehe.. sbbkan lesen inilah aku kopak skrg.. haha =
5. read more islamic books and try to reread all my novel = hahahahahahaha *rotfl* so far, i read half way of Bio-Mekanik Solat, didnt even finish a novel yet. soooooooooo much of time, but why cannot do eh? ngeeee~ i try la after this.. at least finish up the BioMekanik Solat :) =
6. go shopping like crazy = didnt get that chance... no money... ngeee. my dad didnt allow me to go out aso.. ;) =

i guess there r lots i need to improve and add.. i believe i still got time for catch up... hope i will! i'll upload the related pictures soon.... gotta go.. movie waiting! hehehe.

countdown??

so sorry ihsan, but i have no time yet to do the tag. will do soonish k. =)

this week, nothing much actually, since my mom brought the laptop to penang for 3 days, so i were at home wif no laptop, so thats mean nothing to do *thats show how my life revolve around laptop oni*. too lazy to use the desktop... huhu...

today went to kursus KPP o something for the driving.. was so bored and the food at its canteen was soooo not much... n it was sooo spicy for me. hehe... really tired la now.. owh, i gotta have to study coz i book my test for this coming wednesday... choose that day coz i want to speed up everything, cant really waste any time... hope i can manage to prepare myself for the test n pass it... =)

i wake up so early this morning, wif the lack of sleep, now i cant really think straight.... i think i shall update more next time.. =P

weekEND

last weekend, went to KL on really last minute planning.. i was suppose to b in Perlis as i need to attend the kursus thingy for the driving license *now im not sure i will hv enuff time to complete the lesson b4 going back to ktt*, but then my parents going aso, so nobody will be sending me. so i just went to kl aso.

the thing is my bro got dengue fever last week. *caused by Flavivirus, ryte panda? =P* so my parents wanna visit him plus help to deal wif the insurance thingy to cover the hospital bill. now he s stable i think.. total for his stay in the hospital was RM 2900++. so $_$ *cashcash* luckly not all my parents have to pay.. =D

after my bro checked out from the hospital, we went to Bukit Cahaya *im not really sure the name* coz my sister realli want to go to the 4 Seasons House there, its winter now. so we all went there and the house was freezing cold! -7 degree celcius!! and we all din bring our sweater. hahaha.. but had a great time having snowfight wif my siblings.. haha.. the ticket said we suppose to be in there oni for 3 minutes but we were in there for 30 minutes *sorry management, we just lost track of time in there.. hehe. but then, by that time, i can barely feel my hand and my nose getting red, blush??*

we aso went to my granparents' place. got to meet the baby! he is now getting chubby-er. i realized, suddently im so in love wif BABY n DONUTS!!!! i love holding the baby.. ^_^
the last day, we went bowling at the nearby mall. early bird package, we played like craze one, for 3 hours, 6 of us, two bowling lanes. manage to play 7 games, and super tired d by the end of the time given. but had a fantastic time! *except the part where my hands sore d*

all in all, was a great weekend, who would expect so. but got no time to go shopping o meet my friends there. *sorry girls, i wish i were there a bit longer coz miss u guys like hell d. muahhx!~* looking forwards for our next trip dad! where we going next weekend? =D

woOdpecKer

yesterday i became a carpenter... or izit.. dunno.. but been drilling holes into my home's wall.. ngeee~ my dad didnt wanna do it, so i have to do it.... somehow i think the pics that i hang is senget... hehehe... the pics i upload in here may look senget coz the angle pics taken, o it is senget.. ngeee


last nyte i went to kangar... bad idea.. it made me crave for shopping more.... i want to go shopping!!! sadly, i have zero cent in my wallet... all my money is in the bank.... i want shopping!!!! *got a cute pink blouse last nite, i dont care, im going back there soon to buy the blouse =P* btw, CNY is coming.. some pic taken at The Store, the giant firework.. hehe

mix and match

1. the baby.. waa. i wanna hold u... again.. ngeee~ tetiba minat nak pegang baby la pulak...*time kecik2 best la...hehe* this is my new cousin. welcome to the family, wait till u big enuff, i hope i wont bully u ;) hehehe...


2. penang. went to penang. my mom doing sabbatical at USM, so we just follow her... while my mom doing her work, my dad brought us to the museum there.. a university got a museum. hehehe.. was great. had a great time i think.. :) but quite tiring..

3. BBQ. we did bbq, my sweet small neighbourhood.. was nice la.. coz the first time i 'socialized' wif them after always away in collage.. hehe.. first time i tried to make coleslaw =) they like it.... i donnow whether its delicious o not, coz i just eat it, i love mayoo, i love cabbage and carrot, so eating time~


4. hostel. sent my sis to her new school this morning.. she took mostly my stuff i used when i was in collage. so, suddenly she become the pink girl, coz all the think she took from me is pink.. ngeee~ the hostel is quite ok, but the dorm is so dusty, they didnt swept it yet i think.... owh, the school bedsheet is pink aso. so jealous of her bed now!~ hehehe.. pic of my sis's dorm. *we were the first one there, so only her bed is nice! hehe*

time fly, i grow

today i start thinking, its been one and half year! meaning, one and half year away from family, one and half year being a geek, one and half year of suffering, one and half year of hard life teacher, and one and half year growing....

its feel like yesterday, all that happen.. who would ever thought that i would come out of one-and-half-year alive..but i am, alive. alhamdulillah. thinking back, i manage to get good result for AS, but really worry bout my A2 result.. tawakkal 'alallah..

went to penang today. guess im really on a holiday... hehe.. just quite tiring and barely have time... weird huh? coz some of my friend said they donnow what to do, but me, i cant even finish one book in a week, too much other things to be done else than reading...

hehe.. tomoro got wedding ceremony for my mom's friend's daughter. most probably im gonna need to wake up early coz my mom said she gonna send me there before 9am... wuuuaaa....

till then, write later~

wHat a wEek

These are very horrible.. I miss a proper food which I can eat and wont have to rush to the toilet… its really a disastrous week, even its raya haji, we particularly just celebrate it for the 1st day.. after that, we stay home for the whole week.. of coz, I cant even stay away from the toilet more than one hour…. Plus some other thing that bothering me….

I don’t know… after the trip, thing happen…. Which is so unexpected… I don’t know what should I do, until I did lots of things I know damn well that I suppose not do.. and now I really regret doing it. But things cant be undone…. Why why why.. why did I have to do that… truth, I suck in mostly everything..

Too good to be true
Too bad to be happening
Crying or devastating
Suffering or affliction
Things still doesn’t change
And still you have to go through
The same painful path
Till you found the strength

I wish I can change things… I wish things were like they were before.. but I’m not a god, I cant do anything, but pray… Allah, give the best for me, give me courage and strength. Coz rite now im losing everything im trying to built inside, again. Help me…

the chest pain is back again... wuaa.. i need air!!

u r not perfect nadia, but why, why u still hate other people? i cant help it.. when i hate someone, i simply hate that person.... astaghfirullah...

lOng suMmarY

been really busy.. as i thought, once A2 finish, lots n lots of thing need to be done. So many event, feeling, picture.. smpai tahap malasnya nak update pape, blog, picture or anything coz too much… in my computer pun, picture dh sgt2 bnyk….

= ending of A2, beginning of shopping spree =

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Last paper was biology paper 4, wasn’t so good, but still Alhamdulillah, manage to answer it.. after that Mr. Zaini talk about hostel and so on, then Mr. Razib, then Madam Azian.. it seem like non stop.. at last, we were released at 1pm after we arrange the chair n so on… was rushing to get ready for the planned-shopping-spree, prayer, eat, kemas my stuff, send my blanket to laundry coz at 2pm there was suppose to be psychology test report or something. Was super angry becoz the people who suppose to give us the report didn’t arrive at the schedule time 2PM. They arrived at 1512, we have to wait for nothing for more than one hour… hurm.. most of us super mad coz we didn’t have time to eat lunch.. I’m not sure what should I say about this eventhough Malaysia is democratic country. Thus, our trip to KL which planned at 1500 became 1820.. huhu.. what to say.. may be they have their own reason for arriving late…

So, Wen Xin, Sushi and me arrive at KL at 7 something, late and very crowded.. as usual lah, time org balik kerja …so, agak rushing la… sempat pegi tiga tempat je.. but tak dpt beli bnyk sgt. Dpt beli memory card 1GB for my aunty kat low yat, pusing2 Sg. Wang then gi Times Square.. tak best langsung sbb sume kedai dh nak tutup time tu… huhu… sedey.. tp sempat beli bolero at KlSentral and silicon pad for my heels.. smpai rumah pun dh dekat kul 1, sbb gi makan dulu dgn my grandpa.. hehe

The next day, was super lazy to wake up coz super tired aso.. but then, thinking of our plan plus the previous day, so bangun la jugak.. started our day wif very delicious nasi lemak. Thanks Opah!! 9 something we head off to KlSentral to take bus to Sunway.. I don’t know why RapidKL always have problems wif me.. we wait about an hour but no bus to Sunway.. we found our bus but then the driver said the bus going in KL onli. Huh?!?! Hot and sweaty, lastly we decided to take KTM to subang… lastly arrived at Sunway Pyramid.. hehe. So, dapat la ice skating.. smpai sakit2 kaki la kiranya.. hehehe.. tak dpt shopping sgt kat Sunway sbb nak kena gi bnyk tempat lagi lepas tu.. so around 2 ktorg bertolak dati Sunway gi Jalan TAR. Rancang nak beli satu je tudung utk Grad Day, but lastly I bought 3 tudung.. hehehe.. then went to MidVal to buy the rest of the thing I need.. was rushing there, so it wasn’t an enjoyable shopping. Manage to buy present for my cousin, wrapper, tote bag, make up, present for my classmate and I cant remember more what I bought, but manage to buy all the thing I need before BTN lah… arrived at collage around 10 then I went to pick up my laundry. Bath, wash my cloth then sleep.. around 12 something jugaklah baru tidor… sgt penat n satu badan sakit.. hehehe..

= Graduation Day, Pan Pacific =

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Malas giler nak bangun sbb badan still sakit2 lagik.. lutut siap lebam sbb jatuh time ice skating. Hehe.. tp hari ni nak pakai heels.. giler ah.. agak kelam kabut bersiap la sbb siap mandi sume dh kul 10 pg. baju tak iron lagik, nak bersiap, makeup lagik… hehehe… not me, my neighbour semangat n seronok main makeup on my face.. so redha je la.. hehe. Kul 12 kena naik bas, tp at 12, im still in my tshirt.. belum pakai baju lagik.. hehehe.. was ok la.. enjoyful except that dpt makan lambat.. dh la tak sempat lunch, kul 4 baru dpt makan… naseb baik agak sedap food dia… tp by 6 pm, my legs and foot sgt2 sakit… huhu.. tak de la pape sgt, bnyk tangkap2 gambar dgn kawan2, lecturers and so on… balik dh penat sgt, tp malam tu jugak ada jamuan kelas… turun la jugak walaupun dh sgt malas… kira ok la.. best jgk… dkt kul 1 baru dpt tido… huhu.. esok for sure la qada’ tidur.. hehehe.. pastu kemas2 barang sume… giler bnyk.. then my aunty dtg amik brg… penat giler naik turun tangga 2 tingkat… then pack barang2 utk BTN sume.. penat tp kira ok la…

= kursus BTN =

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Was super tiring and boring… especially the paper work presentation. Bukan apa, sbb pembentang tu baca slide tu je… so sgt2 ngantuk.. jadual pack, tido tak cukup, handphone kena amik, sakit badan… tah la… sepanjang program ngantuk je sbb tido yg tak cukup itu.. cam lawak lak bila piker balik, sbb dlm LDK pun nak tertdo… naseb baik sye masih kuat menahan nafsu mataku itu.. haha.. I don’t know why, but again, I don’t know what to talk to people around me, instead I went and mingle wif people next door… hanya org yg kenal diriku mengetahui apa maksudku itu..

Arrive back at collage around 5, rushing to take my things, sijil2, grad CD, then naik tren balik Kepong…. Arrive at home around 9 pm… so tired.. I slept at 12 until 9 am I think.. coz I promised to go out wif my bestfriends…

= bestie outing =

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but happenly, Husna cannot go out, so I just went out wif Hanisah… went to MidVal again coz I need to find lots of thing aso, especially presents for my sisters… watched TWILIGHT wif HAnisah! and met Hamie and Farah there, unexpected reunion..hehehe.aso I bought a new pair of sneaker and perfume..*actually, Hanisah was the one looking for new shoes, but i end up buying one..hehe *went aso to the Garden… super exclusive place.. *rm5 for toilet, so me and hanisah end up sneaking in the lif for mirror.. haha!* haha… didn’t buy anything there… thanks Honey for the lunch and the great company! We had a very great time… went back around 6 pm… tired again but was awesome coz got spend time wif my dearest BFF :)

= away from Malaysia =

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I enjoy the holiday wif my family… quite tiring coz traveling a lot, but it was ok… bought a lot of thing aso… most of it my parents paid for me… thanks a lot mummy n daddy for this holiday.. I know it cost them tone of money. I really appreciate it :) experienced a lot, seen a lot and learnt a lot...

Im back to home at last..all my things sgt2 bersepah, tp sgt2 malas nak sort things coz terlalu bnyk… hehehe.. so baik main computer.. ngeh3… ok lah, wanna watch movie lak… hehehe… update or touch up this post later la.. coz I know this post sgt2 berterabur sbb sye kemalasan nak tulis bnyk2 sgt.. hehehe.. btw, Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Adha, salami erti pengorbanan yg sebenarnya, insyaAllah sama2 raikan semua sacrifies yg kita telah lakukan dalam kehidupan seharian kita kerana Allah s.w.t.

SleEp hEad

A2 is hard. but me believe me senior warn me aedy about that... now me understand... super depressing.. but bcoz of that, im much lazy to study.. so, last weekend me went back, what me manage to do :
1. read (read only) application topics
2. do 2 past year papers
3. play lots of computer game
4. eat lots of food
5. sleep almost 12 hours everyday
6. watch madagascar 2 (thats the cause of me using 'me' to represent 'i, mine, me') hehehe
7. went shopping at low yat and sg. wang

see? how i wasted me time? huhu.. now me need to cover back for all the time me wasted, coz me forgot most of biology facts aedy.. huhu... cant wait to finish biology exams...coz of the stay up me did most of the night, me having 'a swollen eye', i mean AN EYE only, wierd but only my right eye have that problem... huhu...

me so mad looking at someone so spoilt but didnt realize that and demands more... super annoying and making me damn jelous... huhu.. what to do...


btw, 13th November, happy 20th birthday to panda.. u know what u meant to me and not much word i can write here to show that. moga panda yg kukirim ke sana ituh dpt mengukir senyumanmu ituh... hehe. may Allah bless ur venture and my wish for u is the best in ur life :) actually, i got another present for u, but it seem like forever for me to complete it before i email it for u.. hehe..

beautiful disaster..

why why why? this time, its super hard.. i mean physics paper 4... extreme one... i dont know how to answer lots of Qs and not enuff time aso... huaa... everyone aso said it was hard, but how far its true, i dont know.. coz some people said its hard and they cant answer it but then they did pretty well actually.... just hope and pray for the best....

back to collage today, for the psycho test... heh. gonna be a honest girl later.. ngeh3.... my test is at 1230 i think...

chemy paper 4 this wednesday... i dont like paper 4... u study much but still, the paper will dissapoint u, hard... wua... dont like, dont like....

Ya Allah, gimme courage, gimme success, gimme Ur guide...

10 days to freedom~

Chemy 5

alhamdulillah, finished another paper... was quite hard and not enuff time to complete it, so i just answer it blankly.... hehe... tawakal 'alallah...

been sorting out some more of my stuff here at collage... toooo many la... hurm... but reducing now, some i put in the recycle bin, some i sent to my aunty place aedy.. thanks to her! :)

ok lah, really busy today. lots more to cover for physics.. tomoro paper 4 physics! hope will be ok...

write again later~

i miss......

sleePing..

hehe... statistics paper, alhamdulillah, was ok, better than pure math.. now, i finish one subject, 3 subjects to go, 6 more papers.. :)

tomorrow got another paper, but somehow, i donnow what to study.. so i end up sleeping. hehehe.. siap mimpi2 lagik... kinda sweet and scary. ;)

cant wait for everything to finish... but not really aso, coz gonna be soooo pack wif plans and arrangement to settle everything before go back...

now going thro a rough time, wif emo unbalance... huhu.. been crying several time a day for no reason... hehe. no worry, its nothing i think. coz i was crying for nothing.

write later.. i miss....~

baby..

I should be sleeping ryte now.. I know I do. But somehow I feel the need to write.. after long time I didn’t write…

Another paper is coming. Gladly I finished pure math 3, now I have statistics before I’m free from mathematics. Its not like mathematics is that hard, I used to love math, but as soon as I started A2, math is so hard for me, and I start to dislike it… I guess now, im doing ok, even not so good. I’ve tried pass year papers, and I hope that makes me well prepared…. Hurm.. wish so!

Going back to collage tomorrow I guess. Have to move on.. time never stop, it continue to tick even when u don’t want it to. I guess we just have to keep on with the speed. Sorry Wen Xin, I lost track of counting the day until freedom. Staying away from ktt give me a mirage of another world with no study… but,im so happy that I still study and realize that I need to study. Its hard to focus but alhamdulillah, I manage…

I went to watch movie at Seremban 2.. High School Musical 3. I like it the most out of the other 2, the cariography is damn nice! I like….

Last Sunday, my aunt did open house at her place. Was ok, but super tiring coz have to arrange and rearrange back the house. The most exciting part that I love soooo much is another aunt of me came, she is 8-months-pregnant. I love to put my hand on her tummy…. Then I can feel the baby movements. I like so much! My aunty laughed at me everything I go excited when I felt the baby move… I love the feeling that I felt that time…

Everyone is sooo far, and im searching for a shoulder to cry. I shed tears, where im alone. Its not that im alone, but friends are far and busy, so does my love. I wish for one moment, nothing else matter, and I can sit there and share that moment with… its too hard… for now..

Im crapping… again… heh. Write again later~

water defficiency

since thursday, sepang had water shortage due to the break down of 3 major pipes. who's to blame? who ever so 'clever' korek the sand and hit that pipe! its hard meh living without water coz we didnt store any water as the water shortage was so sudden. super depressing

but the worse was on saturday. SYABAS didnt send any water to our collage for the whole day, by the end ofthe day, collage decide to bring all the student outside to finr water. so i brought down my bottle and wait as they said now going d. but i have to wait for an hour before we start the 'water hunting'. guess what? the driver brought us soooo far, until R&R Seremban! only there he told us go take water, bath and eat. why the heck didnt tell earlier, i just brought water bottle only. not even a penny! so, i waste one hour waiting there in front of KFC! that time my hand aedy starting to hurt...

ok, at 1135 pm, the bus arrive to pick us up. but then the driver said we have to waot for the second trip as well.. damn.1st trip aedy pack, imagine how to stuff everyone inside, with all the pail and bottle. plus, the second trip just arrived meh, have to wait for them to fill up water first.. fine... then it took almost an hour to arrange all the pail at the storage compartment below the bus.. at that time, my hand aedy luka2, and im damn tired......

at last, we head back to collage, only the FIRST trip!, at 0040. that time i feel like i wanna cry aedy.. we arrive at 0120 and now, i have to bring my heavy bottles upstair..... huhu.... i settle down and slept at 0200... super tired.... just for a pail of water....


but im super mad, coz on Sunday, SYABAS sent the water twice! why.... didnt send on saturday, can it cover our miserable saturday by sending it twice one the next day? we need water everyday la...... =(

alhamdulillah, the water is back today. im soooo happy... after 4 days surviving without water... ok, moral of the story, i think i learnt a lot from these terrible experience. most of the student experienced it aedy as the live in hostel during secondary school. this is my first time to has to go thro this at hostel. but still, it help me to become a better person, not much, but at least a little improvement.... and i believe, 10 years from now, we all be laughing when remembering these experience.. i hope so! hehehe..

till then, i need to pray, have my lunch, then back to PURE MATH... huhu...

connected??

.1st and 2nd.
why why why. everyone still look at me when i have nothing to do with that person nemore? can u guys just believe when i say 'it past aedy', take it as it is? why have to doubt me for something u guys have no idea at all about it? im sick of been linked to person that i have no respect at all toward them. im tired to pretand everything is ok when u guys ask about them. cant u see that we r not friend nemore???! i hate her!~ she hurt me the way nobody can imagine of, she is the one who rip the friendship apart!


.3rd.
my mind still cant get around the idea that panda is away aedy. why why why. almost three months super closed, suddenly have to adapt to such a change, quite hard. my handphone now didnt sing for his sms, nor his call, nor anything.... so sad. i know, he said, even he left me in malaysia, but he wont ever forget me. but i cant help feeling l e f t b e h i n d n f o r g o t t e n. heh, btw, thanks for teman-ing me till i sleep every night!~ hehe..

.4th.
does the silent mean anything to them? i believe not. heh, coz i, myself didnt care, so why should they.im super mad at u for making me mad at u. u make me depressed. huhu...

.5th.
pre a2 result! very bad. haha.. expected aedy, but still quite dissapointed.. how, wif this kind of preparation im gonna sit for a2? nadia, im sure u wanna fly. so start work hard from now!

apa lagi lah yg daku merapu inih.... nowadays always feel tired.. y eh? and why why why. i have diarrhea everyday.... dont like~ ok, need to do math! till then~

why...

Salam eid fitri to everyone.. how my raya eh? good i guess... but too short, been back to collage on 6th October, and since then, i didnt feel like its raya anymore.. its feel like normal day, and when my aunty ask 'tak pergi beraya mana2 ke?' then i feel sad.. wuaa.. its still raya and i didnt feel it.. plus next year, insyaAllah my raya is in inidia... huhu... so sad... why...


i'm too lazy to update actually, not in a good mood nowadays.. lots had happen that making me depressed...

exam.. wua... a2 is coming and i didnt prepare anything yet. i donnow how im gonna answer the papers that coming in one weeks time... huhu... i have to stop wasting my time and start studying... but somehow im too lazy to do that...... oh my...

why?why?why? l e f t b e h i n d n f o r g o t t e n

lots more things actually, but im not that cruel to mention all of it, coz its too much, and its too harsh.... huhuhu..

btw, my friend, thanks for being so patient in layan-ing me.. i wonder how u possess that kind of understanding coz even me, myself, im so easy to loss my temper, even to u my dear.. so so sorry... huhu.. im being a bad friend, arent i... huhu. thanks again! love u always!~

cant wait, 39 days to freedom!~

the enD..

i've been quite busy lately, so long didnt update my blog. plus with lack of sleep and the pressure around...

lots to share,but only to one person... but somehow i am thankful, alhamdulillah at least i got one friend to share with, rather than nobody. thanks to my beloved panda, he knows who he is to me. i cant put it to words on how much i appreciate his patient and kindness to me. dude, i love u in the way that i can *uhibbuka fillah* so many things happen, so many feelings rushing, and thanks for always there for me. cant think how i will manage when u will be away.....

ramadhan... reaching the end of it.. permission to write in malay

sayu rasa hati sbenarnya nak tinggalkan ramadhan... seblom2 ni, tak penah rasa macam ni... klu puasa tu, still kira hari, berapa hari lagi rasanya nak raya. mmg la still kejar pahala yang banyak dalam bulan puasa tu, tapi tak mampu menghargai bulan penuh barakah ini semaksimanya. baca quran seboleh2nya nak khatam, tp mind setting before, tak khatam pun tak pe.. sekarang, alhamdulillah, dh mula sedar.. sayang rasanya nak berpisah dgn bulan ramadhan ini.. mungkin pengalaman tahun lepas mendidik jiwa ini utk lebih menerima dan menghargai ramadhan. Ya Allah, ampunkanlah hambaMu ini.....

tahun ini berpuasa di Malaysia, di KTT buat kali kedua, sgtlah berbeza. tahun lepas, puasa di Taman Kenanga. indah benar, nikmat bersahur, nikmat berbuka. ktorg siap buat senarai tugas siapa kena bangun masak sahur.. dlu mcm reluctant je, tp alhamdulillah, dgn ada jadual itu, buat aku bangun awal walaupun hari tu bukanlah tugas aku. huhu.. saat manis, bersahur dan berbuka beramai2, sepuluh orang semua. tahun ini, sgt berbeza. bersahur dan berbuka di rumah org. nasib badan..... tp, still, alhamdulillah, ada juga tempat dan teman nak berbuka dan bersahur. thanks guys!

tahun depan, insyaAllah tahun pertama akan menyambut ramadhan di bumi orang. Allah, temukan aku lagi dengan ramadhan tahun hadapan.... hope tahun hadapan akan diberi peluang utk berada dalam bulan penuh kerahmatan ini dan ibadah tahun hadapan akan lebih baik lagi. meanwhile, puasa yang tinggal dua hari lagi ini manfaatkanlah...... Ya Allah, tak penah sangka aku akan rasa sedih sebegini....

im home now... real unconditional love.. :) tak sabar jugak nak raya, dpt jumpa sepupu, mak sedara, pak sedara, atuk, opah and sume2. mana tahu tahun depan tak dpt balik raya......... sabar je la... been home for two days aedy, but didnt really study yet.. just did 3 questions on pure math.. hahaha..

yesterday i bake! seronok...... a bit tired but its nice... nothing much to tell, coz the feeling when u cook something and by the end of the day, people eat it, is so undescribable... hehe..

and there was a shocking thing happen a few days back, and i didnt expect it to happen, and mostly, im not sure i want it to happen... huhu.... gimme a time to think k.....

anyway, to all my friends who i didnt have a chance to contact, slmt hari raya maaf zahir batin. hope our ukhuwah will always be cherished and our love always connected.... paper la yg aku mengarut tuh.. hehehe...

tapah

not in really good mood i guess.. really tired for the pass weeks, wif exam and so on.. lack of sleep that y, my biological clock once again go haywire. wuaa... why again i have to go thro this prob? and i know what will come after these, it will effect my health.. i cant afford to fall sick again.. ur own fault, so please dont stay up much nadia....

dear Allah, please give me health, give me courage and strength, give me joy and faith....

my friend Syahidah came back from Mansoura, and last weekend i went to her place and spend time wif her.. suddenly on saturday her mom ajak me to go along to tapah, her kampung.. it wasnt on our plan, but insyaAllah, ada la hikmah ketetapan Allah itu... it was wonderful actually, coz after been a while since i went back to my own home, i felt happy coz its feel homey... the food, the people... except the kids la.. hehe

congrats to my friends who just got their IELTS result!

puasa yg sudah memasuki 10 kedua, manfaatkannya... 10 hari keampunan, rebutlah insyaAllah..
astaghfirullahal'azim~

bila hati berbicara

in a mode of blues.. haha!

almost a year

looking thro past

by living a new present

hoping for some future

but

one year almost past

i manage to dive thro

and success in fighting

having a greater present

with a future to look forward to

might be in the past

living everyday make me feel

something is missing from my side

searching for a solid basis

to continue circulating the present

but

wif the love of my life

i knew all these while

i never do walk alone

neither in past, present or future

coz i know my dear

you will always stand there next beside me

holding me up

and walk me toward the bliss

looking up each time

seeing your eyes in front of me

first time i manage to smile from my heart

and its glow of our love..

thanks to my love one, aso my family and siblings, then to my best friends - Husna, Hanisah i HEART you all always!

harDisk..

my laptop went crazy, as someone called it 'CRASH'. i lost everything in my laptop, all my files, all my essay, my pictures, my songs....!! wuaaa.. i cried like hell that tyme.. hehe. so sad aso, plus that tyme i was terribly sick, plus tired after a long journey back to collage...... only Allah knows how I was feeling that tyme...



n now, i GOT my laptop back!!! at least i can use it la, even all my stuff had gone. my bro repair it for me. guess what, have to buy a new hardisk, luckly my dad willing to pay for it. Thanks ALOT daddy! cost him rm250... huhu.. donnow what did i do until the hardisk totally broken. haha.... so, now, my laptop is like a brand new one which i have to install everything back... huhu.. having trouble to install yahoo messenger! donnow why.... anyhow, thanks to my bro who help me fix the laptop, come to KLsentral to take the LT then go back then come again to give me back the LT.. most of all to my DADDY! love u lots!! sorry for being a pampered daughter again.. =D



to all my muslim friends, selamat berpuasa. moga ramadhan kali ini membawa sejuta erti, rahmat, hidayah, maghfirah dan keampunan. gunakanlah kesempatan ramadhan ini sebaik-baiknya! ahlan wasahlan ya Ramadhan!



exam is coming!! preA2... last internal exam.. huhu.. not prepared at all.... pray for the best!