..My yesterday, tomorrow and today..

Yesterday
I was thinking of my future
Looking for the best side
And expecting the worse of all
With the faith of others
But also my own doubts
Scare with the freedom
Happy with the sorrow
Then I realize
How weird my life that day
And how terrific my day is

Today
Early of the starting
I’m standing without aim
Coz I want to share
But I just got to stare
At the blur future
Looking in my hand
And stood there with crystallize water
Sad with the fantasy
Happy with the realistic
Then I know
How lucky my life that day
And how bad my day is

Tomorrow
I will struggle to accept the past
Here in future
Not sure am I sad
Nor happy
Coz I had make my life worse
And make my future bright
Satisfied with the outcome
Don’t want the outcome too
Then someone told me
How perfect my life is

I look blindly forward
Now I’m not sure
Did I want these yesterday, today nor tomorrow?
Many others wish they can trade my life with theirs
But I still don’t know
Am I lucky?
Or my life is wonderful
But I didn’t see the bright side of my life?

rEsult

rEsulT coMinG....afraid? may be.. im not ready to see it yet!!

daily news on CNN!!

staying at home everyday, from 6 a.m. this morning, till 6 a.m. the next morning, people alwayz said its so boring and they will said that they missed school so much. but for me, im not sure if i missed school. those sweet little class, wif the teachers come, teach, n go. i donnow, but for sure, im not ready to step into another education level. i dont want to go to university!!! i know everyone will think im wierd n im sure my parents will not agree wif me. but i just dont want to left this shell yet...can i?i dont like things changing, i love the way it is now. but i know that world is all about changing all the time, every single second. BUT, my mind still cant get used wif the university idea..

Top 10 romantic getaways

1. Islands of Hawaii
2. Paris
3. Caribbean
4. Venice
5. Tahiti
6. Greece
7. Jamaica
8. San Francisco
9. Monterey Peninsula
10. New York City

ehm, where is Malaysia?! Haha..

Top 20 bloom sprouting (flower!)

the ranking of top 20 in most famous flower and most attractive! (Sexy)

1. Roses (loVe)

2. Orchid ( a belle)

3. Iris ( My compliments )

4. Calla Lily ( Purity )

5. Sunflower ( pure thought)

6. Amaryllis ( splendid beauty )

7. Tulip ( Declaration of love )

8. Carnation ( Pride and beauty )

9. Hydrangea ( Heartlfelt )

10. Birl of Paradise ( Joyfulness )

11. Chrysanthemum ( Fidelity )

12. Daffodil ( Chivalry )

13. Tiger Lilly ( I dare you to love me )

14. Anthurium ( Hospitality )

15. Peony (Bashful )

16. Lilac ( Youthful innocence )

17. Gerbera Daisy

18. Anemone ( Anticipation )

19. Aster ( Patience )

20. Stargazer Lily

FamILy gAthEring..

30 December 2006
I went to Port Dickson with my uncle and arrive at our.. im not sure is it a hotel or a resort.. at 12 noon. we settled down and then i met my family, uhu dad and mom after almost 2 weeks. then we just rest at our room and i watch everybody else eat their lunch.. i am FASTING!! at 530 pm, we got a telematch and its was an enjoyful game which make all family members enjoy each other.. there, 6 families gather for that holiday trip. I didnt win any game but my mother and my brother did. then, its time to eat!! 830 pm, we had a barbecue together.. huhu, uncle Daanish ate a lot!! haha..

31 December 2006
early in da morning, i had to wake up and take bath. we went for AidilAdha solat at the nearest mosque. then, my family went to my dad's friend's house. after that, we went to my auntie's sister's home at Kuala Pilah and have kind of party there. at 400 pm, we went back to Port Dickson. we then go to seaside.

1 January 2007
We went to A Famosa Water Theme Park. it was great but at the end of the day, i catch a cold!! waa.. then we went back to KL. have a sleep there at my aunt home.

dRiVinG

yesterday, my aunt start teaching me driving. wow, first time on wheel, the feeling was amazing. i felt i have the power coz im the one who controling it. then, i felt like i just controling a toy car coz i didnt feel real, its just like dreaming. Oh God, if my dad know, he will be mad at me.. and today i didnt get the chance to drive again coz we went out to Jusco and its already late when we arrived at home..huhu.. i can drive now!! illegally.. haha

Away

Im at kl.. back to kl.. and God, Husna is having bad fever and im so worry. is she going to be fine? Lord, plz give Husna great health so we can continue our 'pengabdian' towards You!

4tH dAys

prepare to go home! :)

3Rd dAy

pack my stuffs and prepare to go to Cameron! huhu, its so cold up there! during day, its 17 degree centigrade. by night, its so so cold!!! i went to find pink roses!! so cute!

2nd Days

still in Concorde but i went to my Opah's house and i am so happy, i get a chance to watch tv!! wakaka...

1st dayZ

I arrived at Concorde Hotel at 5 p.m. and the hotel is quite cool. we staying at junior suite but still crowded with 10 of us! nothing special today coz i was so bored. there is no lap top neither do internet! the room was so chilling. huhu!

I mIsS YoU!

I miss you,
I miss you're smile,
And I still shed a tear
Every once in a while

And even though it's different now
You're still here somehow,
My heart won't let you go,
And I need you to know,

I miss you,
Shalalalala,
I miss you

Hannah Montana

MerDeka!

At last! i donnow how to describe my feeling rite now coz its quite confuse and complicated! Huhu..i dont have much time to write here now coz i have to prepare for the trip to Penang in 30 minutes time. Busy? its okay if its do nothing with facts and informations!! im tired of stuffing all that in my head.. not really..

mY hOliDay..

lets me put out my plan for this SPM holiday, 6 months!! which starts 7 december 2006, my last paper!

7 - 8 December 2006

penang! here i come! im going to penang with my classmate, the coolest class in the universe,
5 Sumaiyah 2006

10 - 13 December 2006

huhu, i really missed water!! my favorite place to be.. playing with water with my family members.. all of them.. ehm.. 8 of them!!

13-15 December 2006
yo! im on top of the world!! wif my family too, i will go to cameron highland!!

16 December 2006

my aunt will held a wedding ceremony and i have to attend!

17 December 2006

at last, i arrived at my aunt home, nilai! just next to KLIA!! supposely i go there by airplane but since my parents love me so much and will bring me there, so i just throw away my airplane ticket on 14th December that i had bought!

after that, thats a lot more plan to be but i tell u later when i have been there!!

loVe areNt oNe..

Courtly love in general modern use means an unconsummated relationship, courtly love in medieval Europe was in fact often adulterous. Eroticism is an aesthetic focused on sexual desire, especially the feelings of anticipation of sexual activity. It is not only the state of arousal and anticipation, but also the attempt through whatever means of representation to incite those feelings

Platonic love in its modern popular sense is an affectionate relationship into which the sexual element does not enter, especially in cases where one might easily assume otherwise. A simple example of platonic relationships is a deep, non-sexual friendship between two heterosexual people of the opposite sexes

Familial love is a type affinity or natural affection felt between members of a group bound by common ancestry or blood ties. The cultural ideal of familial love is one that is committed, unconditional, selfless, emotionally full, and reciprocally returned by the other.

Puppy love is an informal term for feelings of love between young people, especially during adolescence, so-called for its resemblance to the affection that may be felt towards a puppy dog. In general, puppy love refers to an incomplete, immature, or 'false' love compared to 'true' love.

True love is a popularly held concept of loving another lover or potential lover without restraint and without restriction. true love is described as love without condition, motive or attachment, loving someone just because they are themselves, not because of their appearance, actions, or other superficial factors. Such shallow reasons for affection, those that only appear on the surface, are often considered infatuation or puppy love, which are less profound and meaningful than true love.

Romantic love is a form of love that is often regarded as different from mere needs driven by sexual desire, or lust. Romantic love generally involves a mix of emotional and sexual desire, as opposed to Platonic love. There is often, initially, more emphasis on the emotions than on physical pleasure

It is important to note that the exact definition and nature of true love is highly subjective. Throughout history, true love has been debated over by philosophers, writers and scholars such as Shakespeare and Plato. Modern day intellectuals also have widely differing ideas of true love.

rOse..

when you want to give a rose to someone special, did you know what each roses means? believe it!

... red - love ...
... pink - grace, gentle feeling of love ...
... dark pink - gratitude ...
... light pink - admiration, sympathy ...
... white - innocence, purity, secrecy, friendship, reverence and humility ...
... yellow - its a symbol of dying love or platonic love - in German, it's jealousy, infidelity ...
... yellow with red tips - friendship, falling in love ...
... orange - passion ...
... burgundy - beauty ...
... blue - mystery ...
... green - calm ...
... black - slavish devotion ( as a true, black rose is impossible to produce) ...
... purple - protection ( paternal/maternal love ) ...

Love like u never hurt

are rejection same with brake up? i am wondering is it the same coz if someone said she and he had broke up, automaticly other people will say her/his love had been rejected. is it? as long as i know, rejection and brake up is a different way of ending relationship. brake up is when the man and the woman cannot tolerate with each other in any way, their end their relationship with their love still alive but rejection is when u didnt want he/she anymore coz u have someone else, u hate he/she or u didnt love him/her, not yet. and rejection is when u broke up with someone when u have another person to replace him/her. thats the only case where brake up and rejection is conected. love in brake up but hatred in rejection. so, anybody have any idea of it? but still, i believe, brake up and rejection is nothing same!

A child's definition of love: Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other. Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redbird. When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you. You can break love, but it won't die

STUPID!!

who is that guy?! go to hell with his words. i never insulted anybody, nor their family but why he keep insulting me? and my father too?! all the 'H' in my life, i need all of u! i cant stand with this man keep doing this to me. what have i done that make me deserve this?! i never even call anybody stupid but he insulted me like i am a girl with no PRIDE!! Oh Allah, he didnt deserve ur world, ur earth and ur land coz he never learn! i have to stand his insults not only this time but so many times! he is not my responsible, why he kept bugging me? he is not my responsible, not even my dakwah's responsible!

ok, may be the words i had write was my angry. but if that man stand in front of me, i will slap him! he is nothing to say those words towards me and my family! I will never reply that man again, and u will never get my forgiveness, never!!

Busy

Sorry so busy. I have a lot things to do and to think. So, until then, tara!