bila hati berbicara

in a mode of blues.. haha!

almost a year

looking thro past

by living a new present

hoping for some future

but

one year almost past

i manage to dive thro

and success in fighting

having a greater present

with a future to look forward to

might be in the past

living everyday make me feel

something is missing from my side

searching for a solid basis

to continue circulating the present

but

wif the love of my life

i knew all these while

i never do walk alone

neither in past, present or future

coz i know my dear

you will always stand there next beside me

holding me up

and walk me toward the bliss

looking up each time

seeing your eyes in front of me

first time i manage to smile from my heart

and its glow of our love..

thanks to my love one, aso my family and siblings, then to my best friends - Husna, Hanisah i HEART you all always!

harDisk..

my laptop went crazy, as someone called it 'CRASH'. i lost everything in my laptop, all my files, all my essay, my pictures, my songs....!! wuaaa.. i cried like hell that tyme.. hehe. so sad aso, plus that tyme i was terribly sick, plus tired after a long journey back to collage...... only Allah knows how I was feeling that tyme...



n now, i GOT my laptop back!!! at least i can use it la, even all my stuff had gone. my bro repair it for me. guess what, have to buy a new hardisk, luckly my dad willing to pay for it. Thanks ALOT daddy! cost him rm250... huhu.. donnow what did i do until the hardisk totally broken. haha.... so, now, my laptop is like a brand new one which i have to install everything back... huhu.. having trouble to install yahoo messenger! donnow why.... anyhow, thanks to my bro who help me fix the laptop, come to KLsentral to take the LT then go back then come again to give me back the LT.. most of all to my DADDY! love u lots!! sorry for being a pampered daughter again.. =D



to all my muslim friends, selamat berpuasa. moga ramadhan kali ini membawa sejuta erti, rahmat, hidayah, maghfirah dan keampunan. gunakanlah kesempatan ramadhan ini sebaik-baiknya! ahlan wasahlan ya Ramadhan!



exam is coming!! preA2... last internal exam.. huhu.. not prepared at all.... pray for the best!

clinic -> hospital

s.i.c.k - h.a.t.e.d.o.c - s.c.a.r.e.d

btw, selamat hari memperingati Al-Quds - 21082008

gtg, got date wif d.o.c =S

. . h a t e m e h a t e m e m o r e b u t p l e a s e s t o p h u r t i n g m e . .

KLIA + wall.e

yesterday morning, i woke up at 5 am to get ready to go to klia!! 5 am... huhu... the bus is at 6, quite rushing to do subuh prayer but glad i made it... arrived at klia, i was so............. donnow la... it just that its really been a while since i went to klia and i barely remember klia nemore... but not much change i believe. went there to send my friend who was flying to indonesia that day.. wah, so happy they manage to fly at last, after a year struggling at KTT. wasnt really enjoy the atmospere as it is as gloomy as a cloudy day... when i was so busy looking my friend walking away, me n some of KTT students realize that most of us had gone.. kelam kabut we go out to find our bus is moving, leaving us.... we all donnow what to do nemore... luckly, someone call the student who was aedy in the bus, and the bus turn back to pick us up... the driver so kejam one! dont wanna wait even a minute, we pratically ran for the bus and he keep on driving, leaving us..... huhu.... thats how my day started, so bad.....

today, i went to seremban... i watch wall.e!!!! so damn cute... i really enjoy it.. =) then i manage to find my lasagna, wrapping paper for my mom's and sis's birthday presents, and spaghetti! it was nice, but the bad side is i waste lots of money... huhu.. mommy, i need money.....but really had fun la... lots of crazy pictures. haha..but cant post up here, gonna be weird.. hehe..

just now i was cooking at the kitchen, when i came back in my room, i see got a missed call in my phone... a 'witheld' number... who?!?! anybody know how to find out who called me?? hehehe.... plus that 'witheld' person didnt call back... huhu.... cant wait for the next weekend.. meeting my family... but in the middle, have to STUDY!!! even now aso i need to study....

~ 1st electron affinity is the enthalpy change when one electron is added......................

A or AA or AAA or AAAA??

soooooo scary.... imagine, in biology class, suddenly one of my chinese friend said results had been post up at admin!! everyone freaked out and cannot focus on the lecture anymore, but our lecturer purposely continue teaching to finish that chapter. we just nod but not really listen to whateva he was teaching. right after he said 'thats all' all the chinese and almost all malay rushed out of the class!!! haha.. so funny actually, but by that tyme, my heart ready to explode d... it beats so damn hard, hammering my chest... went to admin, sooooo many people in front there.. lots of reaction and making me more nervous.. after like 30 mins standing there, i go in and try to see my result from inside, so its like all the i/c number is viewed backward, had a hard time to find my number. i even misread others' result instead of mine! give me a real shocking everytime misread others' results! haha.... so, the result is......


to my mummy and daddy, thanks a lot for your prayers, love u two much! to my lecturers, i can never say enough thanks for all u've done. to my family, aunties and friends who never forget to pray for me, thanks a lot, i will try not to forget u guys in my prayer... esp for zainal, thanks lots for the solat hajat k! thanks thanks thanks... im sooooo happy... thanks a lot to Allah!!! hope this result will drive me n my friends to study more for our coming A2! gonna struggle hard for this 3 months k!

btw, zainal, its nice to meet u today. after almost 8 years never see each other, for u i think coz i believe i saw u 3 years ago. hehe.. the last memory of us was when we were small naughty kids at primary school, and i cant even really remember that time.. haha! anyway, its great to meet someone i know n share this happiness.. =) n thanks for the choc! when i went to meet u later that evening, my friend ask me where im going, i said to see my bro, she said 'ok i wanna see la ur bro, never see him yet!' i thought she was just kidding, suddenly she really do follow me to meet u! after all, u r my bro what.... older than me ryte... hehe.. Fasyi, so sorry, i didnt mean to lie to u.... =) zainal, later she asked me why we didnt look alike.. =P

rEsuLt!!

somehow i wish tomorrow wont come yet, but a part of me eager to know aso.. not sure.... i have lots of feelings now.. most of it scared, n i dont really wanna think about tomorrow, but it keeps coming into my head..

this is bigger than SPM. this result will determine how much more suffer im going to go thro in the next 3 months....so i really really wish n pray that i will get a good result... please Allah...

now i cant even focus to study... keep on thinking about tomoro.... huhu.. tomorrow evening... hope everything gonna be great...

new friends..

who would ever thought i can make new friends wif someone i never bother to know bout.. and they r nice... suddenly we become quite closed and i always hang out there at their place. n guess where? just next door!! haha.. so much for not knowing my neighbors...! just that they are MARA scholars :) no prob wif that i believe..

at last, i submitted my assignment today! soooo happy.. except for the fact that i get more works.. wuaaa!! the latest are physics tutorial plus math past year on complex number chapter, the chapter that always make me confuse.... so hard lah to finish all the Qs my lecturer gave..... but better than doing miscellaneous i think.. coz its more complicated and i hate doing it... =P

becoming more lazy to study... so busy wif laptop.. hah, what is wrong wif u nadia? u have limited tyme but u r wasting it with editing pictures, chatting, surfing the net, playing.. haha.. actually, i didnt really spend much time doing all that i had mention, mostly i waste time on something else around me... huhu... so depressed with A2 lah....

AS result is coming......... so so scared... please Allah, give me an excellent result... please.....

cant wait to meet my family..... in 3 weeks tyme iA... but 1st need to go out and find a present for my mom's birthday.. hehe... donnow what to buy for her... any idea??

sOo0oOo busy...

been very busy lately... i even didnt really have time to study... lots of work.. huhu.... even i've been online mostly everyday, but then i dont really have time to open my blog... huhu..

the latest, IELTS assignment which has to be submitted next week - 4 reading test, 3 Summary writting, 2 Academic essay... huhu.. we just finish an essay, now i feel too lazy to do another essay..
but what to do, have to do it....

IELTS exam will be held in september if im not mistaken... now all of the lecturers have to finish up all the syllabus by the end of august... sometime i feel like vomiting coz too much input but i didnt understand even a single thing. A2 trial is in September as well... then in October is my A2.... cant wait to finish all these...... btw, i wish i can drop math, but i think it is such a waste... donnow...

miss my home... but what to do, next holiday is on raya, which not a real holiday coz a week after that, A2 exam!!! trying to enjoy myself... but cant really seem to achieve all of it.... last weekend went back, but sadly he was busy.... what to do.....

so confused...

sEeinG Vs HaViNg

before i forget it, Mummy, Happy Birthday!! 8th July.. u've done a woderful job wif all 8 of us, plus daddy, ur husband and still, u have lots of love to spare for us. thanks a lot and im happy n so glad to have u aS my mom...

lots of homeworks... n still, the laziness sometime linger around.. insyaAllah, i will try my best to start working hard next week.... it just another 4 months, so i hope i will work hard for this 4 months.. hope so.. =) n next week, going back!! hehehe... i suppose to go back this weekend n next weekend but since my classmates didnt tell me earlier that most of the classes on saturday were cancled, so i stuck here while my aunty is at kl d... huhu....

i want to by a roller blade... but people said its gonna look weird if i play it at this age... izit?? still considering... my dad said rollerskating is also considered as exercise.. hehe.. told my parents buy, but still didnt buy it yet.. hehe.. but i really miss skating.. we'll see.... btw, Hanisah is in SArawak now... i just knew when she already there..... tak sempat jumpa kau weh... hv to wait bulan 11 nnt.... huhu... miss u so much dear!

18th burfday....

its been a long long tyme... just got back my laptop..

A2, yap, definitely harder.. even only 2 weeks started, i feel like i have to cover a lot of things... so worried la... huhu... too tired to study.. but too scared to play around

to my friends, thanks a lot for the wish k! i cant believe, im 18 aedy!! huhu.. not ready to be that old... keke.. n for my old housemates, thanks a lot! the party was damn fun even u guys pranked me without im noticing it! hehe.. kejam korunk eh! ehehehe.. but for sure, this is the most memorible patry we ever had, ryte? *wink2* to mummy n daddy, thanks a lot for the puzzle frame! i love both of u much!!! to my sis, thanks also... =) tomoro my mum's birthday! i cant wait to wish her....

till then... now i need to study biology, got quiz tomoro! =) dont like actually... but what to do... later i'll upload the picture of last nyte k... =)

wasTe of HoliDays

clock ticking so fast. without me noticing it, its already friday. i will go back on sunday.. huhu.. so, what did i do this week...

i arrived on saturday.. tired after a long journey in train plus lack of sleep... but i start doing the puzzles wif the help of my sisters. by evening, we completed the 1000 pieces puzzle... so nice! cant wait to frame it up...

on sunday, i bake cookies. wif my sisters.. use 500 grams butter if im not mistaken.. but its not that much... by the third day, all the cookies finished....

on monday, i just stay home... cook, laundry, laptop, tv, sleep....... quite boring but then its ok coz i watch lots of movie i wanna watch.. who ever thought my dad downloads lots of movie aso... hehe.. on tuesday aso the same.. bored... but one thing for sure, i didnt study yet...

on wednesday, have a big fight wif my bro... until now didnt talk yet... huhu.. went to poliklinik arau just to be told that its a 'hari ibu mengandung' and i cant do anything...o should i just said im pregnant? haha!

on thursday, i went to hospital besar kangar.... such a waste of time n nerve coz the doctor tell me i dont need the treatment that i was asking for... huhu.. went to the store, trying to find tshirt for my friend. then tudung... but didnt manage to find any.. so at last, im the one who got a new pen and refill... during nite, i have a big fight wif my best friend. and this tyme, i screwed up big time... im so so sorry.... i dont even know will she ever forgive me... huhu

so, thats how my days at home.... so sad that i waste most of my time...hurm....

update later~

YahOOo0oO0o...

im so happy.. at last, the exam season had come to its end and im free from the prison of exam!!! at least, let me enjoy myself wif my loves one during this one week break! then i have to come back for A2, the tougher part of A level. btw, alhamdulillah, i think my bio paper was ok la.... hope so!

coming up next : A2!!!

even after exam, the lecturers remind us about our upcoming hectic life. n the best part is, KTT introducing new measures to improve our result:
1. there will be prep class for the student that they consider need it. its compulsory for that person, and if he/she doesnt wanna come, have to pay. nicest part, the prep class will be held every night from monday to friday!
2. we wont be having anymore saturday holiday. on saturday, there will be classes. next sem, we will get the timetable for our dear saturday..

what the %&@#?!! its not like A2 arent hard enuff.. wif all these, my life gonna be super miserable next sem... huhu... help me..... A2......

im going back tonite.... so, we'll see what happen at home. =) i bought puzzles and stickers so i can spend time together wif my sisters, and then i will bake cookies to spend tyme wif my siblings! so nice... hope everything went well... and not to forget, i bring math book to relearn it from my mom, so i will spend time wif my mummy also! *i hate it that i still have to study, but live it!*. then may be i will spare a day to meet my former schoolmates. and another may be 2 days for my beloved......

im a bambi alone in a forest~

chEmY and PhySics PapeR 1

im sleepy... now, thats the only thing i can say to describe my condition..... actually, its almost 1 am on 13th june, but since i wanna post for 12th june, so i change the time........

my paper... chemistry was horrible.. the Qs was so... confusing i think. n tuff..... huhu.. now im worried about my chemy..... coz all of it kinda horrible... then physics, its much better than chemy lah.... huhu... overall, alhamdulillah.. but still worry....

coming up next : Biology paper 1

and finish.. cant wait for tomoro. at last, my 2 months of AS examsss will end! im so excited.. but then quite nervous thinking of the result later.... Allahumma najjahna fil imtihan.....

so, now i really2 need to sleep.. had been quite a long day, and had been like a month that my sleep is so haywire *izit a right word?*... haha.. i cant even think the right words, forgive me for my 'brilliant' english!

i am a bambi in a forest~

BiOlogY PaPeR 2

at last, biology paper 2 completed. even im lack of sleep, which is im so so sleepy right now *my eyes ready to close d. my friends like to tease me coz of my eyes when im sleepy. hehe*, but alhamdulillah, it was ok i think. even im not sure what i really wrote in there. further comment - miss the eyes!~ only certain people will understand what that means. =)

btw, girl, i think i will let you go. fly wherever u want.... and be happy wif ur choice!

coming up next : chemistry 1 AND physics 1

so, tomoro, got two papers, which is... what should i say uh.... i need to score everything! pray for me, and pray for the best! =)

now, chemy, come here darl........~

PhYSicS 32

hurm... it was fun!! gotta chance to play wif modelling clay.. hahaha! happenly one of the Q was involving clay that had to be shaped into cylinder, which i sucked in doing that.. its just clay and i handle it like im in a workshop o something. haha! even the lecturers who invigilate us aso watching me embarrassing myself. haha! so much noice came from my table alone.. aha! forgive me, but i stop playing modelling clay when i was 9 years old *like really??? kekeke* but it was fun la. and its cute also, once i manage to make it in a shape of cylinder with 8cm width. haha~

overall, the practical is oklah.. alhamdulillah.. much much better than chemy! haha! nothing can ever replace chemy paper 3 from no 1 worse in my AS exam... huhu...

coming up next : Biology paper 2

so tired. so sleepy, but have to cover 4 more chapters. bio paper is tomoro!!! waaaa.... so, till then, tooooodle~

sTuDy tO thE poWer oF inFiniTy

i wish... all i wish is i can leave STUDY for a day and go out so i can enjoy myself... so sad, cannot.... no worry, only until this friday, then exam is over!!! cannot wait for that day... even this week gonna be super miserable..

hurm... tired of crying aedy.. im thinking everything by their positive site... i hope all these ujian Allah giving me, sume nih utk menguatkan lagik aku *making me stronger* and may be sebagai kiffarah atas segala kesalahanku selama nih.. *ya Allah, ampunkan lah dosa2ku and dosa2 ibubapaku..* i just hope at the end of this hardship, there gonna be sunshine waiting for me.. =)

too depressed by study, i eddited pictures of my days in this cute lil room... =) *i think, for a better and clear view of what i've done, click on the images*

this one, its given a touch of oil paint... hehe... me studying not just in front the laptop, but ON the laptop. haha!

this one, i made it like..... er, im not sure what it is like.. but the original one had color... so, its like that thing is pressed into the wall... i think so... and its my jadual for this exam... 4 days to go!!

actually, i eddited this pic to be blurry... kinda edgy... but then, its too small, cant see much what had i done.. i mean the picture in here is so small, so its like i didnt edit it much la...btw, its my chemy multiple choices exercise..

ok, wanna sleep early today.. so can wake up early tomoro.. hehe =P. daa~

reCitE ur quRan

Why do we read Quran, even if we can’t understand a single Arabic word?-This is a beautiful story An old man lived on a farm in the mountains of eastern Kentucky with his young grandson. Each morning grandpa was up early sitting at the kitchen table reading his Qur’an.

His grandson wanted to be just like him and tried to imitate him in every way he could. One day the grandson asked, ‘Grandpa! I try to read the Qur’an just like you but I don’t understand it, and what I do understand I forget as soon as I close the book. What good does reading the Qur’an do?’ The Grandfather quietly turned from putting coal in the stove and replied, ‘Take this coal basket down to the river and bring me back a basket of water.’

The boy did as he was told but all the water leaked out before he got back to the house. The grandfather laughed and said, ‘You’ll have to move a little faster next time,’ and sent him back to the river with the basket to try again. This time the boy ran faster, but again the basket was empty before he returned home.

Out of breath, he told his grandfather that it was impossible to carry water in a basket, and he went to get a bucket instead. The old man said, ‘I don’t want a bucket of water; I want a basket of water. You’re just not trying hard enough,’ and he went out the door to watch the boy try again.

At this point, the boy knew it was impossible, but he wanted to show his grandfather that even if he ran as fast as he could, the water would Leak out before he got back to the house. The boy again dipped the basket into the river and ran hard, but when he reached his grandfather the basket was again empty.

Out of breath, he said, ‘See Grandpa, it’s useless!’

‘So you think it is useless?’ The old man said, ‘Look at the basket.’

The boy looked at the basket and for the first time realized that the basket was different. It had been transformed from a dirty old coal basket and was now clean, inside and out.

‘Son, that’s what happens when you read the Qur’an. You might not understand or remember everything, but when you read it, you will be changed, inside and out. That is the work of Allah in our lives.

waallahu'alam... =)

when im upset wif something, i usually will train myself to read Quran even sometime is hard *nafsu*.. even most of the tyme, coz of my sadness, i'll cry while i read it, and i have to spare a box of tissue next to me, but after i read it, i feel so calm. yeah, the problem and the cause of the sadness still there, but when u r seeking for the answer, by seeking help from Allah, Allah grant us wif Sakinah, thats what help us to go thro the obstacles... insyaAllah..

thats life. not every second of it gonna be easy.. its like a perfect day. for a perfect day, it doesnt have to be sunny all day long. coz the perfect day isnt for us only, its for all living things. if there is no rain, then where the plants and animals and also us gonna get water source? so in life, ujian, problems and obstacle is needed to make a perfect day, to teach us the meaning of life!

biOLOgy pApEr 3

alhamdulillah, another paper completed! it was much much much better than chemistry practical i suppose... the Q was on spring onion *we usually use potato strip, but this year, its diff i think...* and the slide is about stem of plant..

i think it was ok... except last nyte was consultation nite for biology, but surprisingly, not a single biology lecturer came to library... so at last we gave up and go up to sleep... at 10 something only.. haha! but as usual, i cant sleep that early. i end up sleep at one, but didnt study before that... huhu.. next morning, so lazy to wake up.. at last i wake up, prepare and went down, quite early lah! then went to lab... i didnt know that in my lab, im the only one from one and half year prog! other than me, all are from one year programme students!

coming up next : Physics paper 3

i arrived at my apartment at 3 something *before that lepak at farah's place la plus had my lunch there* then i take my bath, n sit in front of laptop, planning to study~ haha... just about to start *kononnya la*, my mom sms me and ask if i wanna follow them to go to bagan lalang. of coz i want! so i siap2 n by 5, i was standing downstair waiting for my family..... the tyme wif my family were superb... i donnow why..! hehehe...

we lepak2 at my aunty place, then pegi tepi laut to have our dinner. i ate until the extent i cant eat no more.. haha. so nice~ but tired... then my family sent me back to collage.. =( i went to lib and meet sharlyne *everyone look at me, i think coz i wore so nice to come to library, but i was just too lazy to change first before go to lib..what for??!* then went upstairs, take bath and here i am now..... i wanna study, but i feel so sleepy aedy... hurm??

ok, nyte syg....

narNiA

another long tiring day, wif lack of sleep.. wif the moodswings, my sleep arrangement and so on, the affect? i got headache this evening.. huhu...

i wasnt planning anything today except to cover back my sleep, then study.... the nyte before, farah call and ajak me to go to seremban to watch narnia... at 1st i wanna go, since she s so nice willing to pay for everything, but then i remember that my parents probably gonna come today.... n i cant ask my mom last nyte what tyme they r coming since my mom aedy sleeping that tyme.. so, i have to wake up so early to sms her...... then i ask her should i go to watch that movie... my surprise, she said 'pegi la'. i never knew my mom will suruh me to go.. especially, watch movie at cinema. i thought my parents didnt allow me to go in cinema... haha! *sorry mummy i didnt ask u before, everytime i went out, but then if i did, may be im being a cry-baby...so, should i?* so, i mandi and siap2... so early... my sleep.....

so sorry to say, but i dont like terminal one at all!! even the cinema is so disgusting.. huhu.... but the movie was so damn nice!!! and whats so funny is, we watch Prince Caspian: The Chronicle of Narnia but we cried! haha.. *but not all the way the movie la!* the movie is great and i think i have no regret going today. but next tyme, im not gonna go to terminal one nemore! i rather go to seremban 2...

back from there, it was 3 something, i eat my lunch.... then i got the headache. i cant study... huhu.. i end up sleeping in pain.... terlajak tidur until kul 7 something when my mum sms me n tell they will stuck in Air Hitam coz belt kereta putus... something la.. im not sure what is that... Thanks Allah they realize that before they start their journey!! then farah call me to ajak me to go eat outside.... ok la...i went wif all of them..

so, now, here i am.. didnt study for the whole day, n now, im going to study! have to! ok then.. wanna study! *my back is hurting...* n to all my friends who s starting thier tertiary edu, good luck! try ur best and expect something more than in school coz university life arent the same as secondary, not the same at all!... take care..! to my mum, miss u sooooo much!

lack oF sleEp..

yesterday, i met my family!!!! all my lil sister came and serang my collage, even my grandma also came, plus my two lil cousins... haha.. they wanna see my apartment aso, so i brought them upstairs since im going back up to pack my stuff, my mom ajak me to spend the nyte at my opah's place *i wont miss it for anything in the world* ... while i was packing my stuff, those kids playing wif my thingy... haha. so, by the tyme we settle in the car and head to nilai to find our lunch, lots of my friend aedy sms me and ask am i going back... n how cute ur lil sisters r... so, the conclusion, lotsa people had saw my family.. kekeke... *of coz, they all follow me to cafe, i went there to call my dad who went there to read the newspaper, and they wanna follow aso, so....*

we went to eat at McDonalds coz we donnow where is the best place to eat here as i never eat outside from coll, so the easiest, fast food! *plus everyone is starving! hehe* then we went to Giant coz i wanna buy lotsa stuff... i take a lot, and so sad, i still forgot some of my things that i need to buy such as beras, peanut butter, jam, and so on.. i forgot .... but the total of all my stuff, almost 200... huhu...! thanks a lot Mummy for paying.... :)

then we went to my opah's place at kepong. arrived there, i met my brothers as well.. hehe... how ever complicated all my siblings are *as in their behaviors..haha!* i still love being wif them even sometime, the kids drive me crazy... they r my family, of coz!! at 6pm, i eat nasik wif real lauk!!! *thats what we call real food, home!* after almost two weeks eating bread only! *sgt sedap, my bro yg masak lauk! kekeke, cam tak caya sbnrnya* so, after playing around wif those kids until like 8 pm something, i went inside the room, planning to do biology past year... i did it, 3 Qs then i felt asleep... hahaha... what can i do, i cannot tahan anymore... so tired plus 3 hours sleep only the previous nite... so, i slept just for 30 minutes before my aunty came and my sister wake me up to meet my aunty... huhu... so, i have to wake up, and what tyme i hit the bed back??? 12 something... by the tyme i felt asleep, i think its almost one.... then. at 545 am, my mom wake up aedy.... *so, 3+5 = 8 hours sleep* coz we plan to start our journey early...my parents is in johor now. they sent me back this morn, then went straight to johor....

arrive at my coll, it was so quite...... morning in KTT~ heheh... so sad seeing the car getting far and far and far...... i wait till i cant see them nemore, then i went up. arranging all my stuff, then continue study... huhu... until 11 something i guess, my eyes cant take it nemore. so i slept again, but just for an hour i think.. the noise wake me up.... huhu........then i was back studyin more... so bored.. but what is so damn great? my mom brought me the harumanis!! skang musim dia, i didnt know that... i miss harumanis so much.. n its taste so wonderful!!!! =)

n now, i really need to sleep...... 8 hours sleep in 72 hours is not good!!! so...... nyte2... *if i still hv my laptop tomoro, i'll continue again k!*

CheMy Pap3r 2

i barely sleep last nyte n now, i feel so.......... indescribable....

ok, i was planning to sleep early so i will wake up early and study..... so, i switch of laptop and go to bed at 1130. i try to sleep.... so lots of noise from everywhere.... plus i think im used to sleeping late, staying up, so, last nyte, i cant sleep, not until 2 am.. so, how long i sleep last nyte? 3 hours only... i wake up at 5 something, then continue doing past year, then study... hahah! study at 5 in the morning?! i never ever did that...at 1st i cant think of anything, may be coz of lack of sleep... then slowly i manage to 'regain' my brain function.... huhu... then study and study and study until 8 am. i was so damn nervous...

the paper? how was it.... hurm... the first glance at it, i was like, damn! then i just answer it, coz i know, by hook o by crook, i have to answer it.. but i skip many Qs then come back to that particular Q when i finish trying to answer all the Q. i dont know... i can answer some, i cant manage some.... anyhow, alhamdulillah, i still can answer all the Qs even wif some 'cute' guess. haha.. now im worried on my chemy paper...... can i make up for the lost i made in paper 3? i hope so! please Allah....

coming up next : biology 3 (practical)

i hope its gonna be sort of easy as the other batch's Q, coz i cant screw my practical anymore... huhu... Allah, give me knowledge, give me Sakinah n give me success.... after exam, i saw her, n for God's sake, why is she ignoring me...... suddenly... i thought we r ok aedy...? hurm... so sad...im arriving at a point of ignoring her too, coz i had done alot plus lowering my ego to pujuk her even its not me the only one that is on the wrong side.... huhu... i dont know!! when people will start to care about me?!? hurm... i guess never...its ok. coz even when they didnt really care, i try my best to spread my love and care to all my friends. give the world the best, and the best of the world will come back to u. insyaAllah!

so, im surrender-ing my laptop.. i guess so.. or if i manage to persuade my dad.... but i dont think so.... haha! its ok.. i can do it, i can survive KTT!! i will.....as someone that believing in me said, 'even if the whole KTT crumble on u, u will survive it'. thanks for believing in me *uhibbuka fillah*! when everybody in KTT doesnt..

mummy daddy, cant wait to meet u!!!!and all my beloved siblings... even how 'cruel' ur sister is, but deep inside, i love u guys so much... kekeke.. hard to believe izit? *innocent!*

m4th3m4t1c2 9709/04

too tired writing my candidate number, centre number, syllabus code on every piece of paper in my answer booklet until the extand i cant forgot the syllabus code of 9709/04 of the mechanics paper just now... its stuck in my head aedy.. hihi =P mechanics o mechanics!

another one done! all math paper completed.. bismillahi tawakkal tu 'alallah! pray for the best. it was okay i think even i had some doubt on my answer but i had done my best, so pray for the best! my love towards math.... is it still there, i wonder... hehe... the math in A2 will be more tuff, so have to be prepared!! ah, AS isnt finish yet, what for thinking about A2?? =) one step at a tyme dear...

coming up next : Chemistry 2

i'm so tired to even study... huhu.... what will happen to me?? i need to work harder! work harder than before!!! i can do it.... but honestly, now, i feel like wanna throw everything and just leave it. but too sorry, i cant. i have to keep doin this... even im going crazy now.. hehe... zainal is ryte, my eyes, when im taking pic of myself, i can see its turning like my beloved panda eyes aedy! i need to have a proper sleep or sooner or later, i will catch something and fell sick, i sure dont want to be sicker than before.... scared me! its been like almost two months now staying up and my sleeping schedule is a mess... my biological clock had been turn up-side-down totally! i need to 'repair' my body back to normal! penangan AS smpai macam ni... exam lama sgt ar...huhu.. cant wait for the exam season to come to its end and i will be free from exam!!

i want to have my laptop always.. hurm.... gonna surrender it in 2 days tyme i think... huhu... cannot go online nemore for how long eh? huhu.. *sad* but no choice...... mummy, daddy, i always love u... yeah, tomoro is khamis! kekeke.. =D

stuDy frEak?

im getting bored of studying eady ar... reading this, doing past year, memorize that, questions, answers.. and LOTS and LOTS of it.. huhu... but still hv to... 2 and half more weeks to go!! waa..... i cant use internet starting this friday till i arrive home... why!! dont take away my laptop... please daddy.........

im scared of chemistry.... i hope it wont be that hard... coz i need to score paper 1 and 2 damn much!! Allah, grand me success!!

what will u feel when u did something so caring for someone u care, then that person didnt care about what u did? hurt dowh.... huhuh.... i let it past, since i always hv be the one who hv to be nice to others.... huhu....

my family s coming!! cant wait.... cant believe im saying this, but i miss Piqah so much! that cute pampered kid.... kekeke... n i miss all of them... 3 more days! insyaAllah..

m4th3m4t1c2

another one done... pure math 1. alhamdulillah, this tyme, its better than the physics and chemy... just pray for the best!!

who would ever thought wif this easy-ness, other difficulties came...? me n my best friend r having fight now..... so damn sad... may be its my fault as i suppose to support her after the paper, coz she is so upset wif her math paper... but im not in the mood that tyme... im so so sorry...... please forgive me.... please stop the silent treatment..... please reply my sms.... =( i always love u and care for u k! miss you so much!! and i know you are in a great pressure now since next week u got 4 papers straight. no worry, even if u didnt want to talk to me, im going to wait outside ur lab for u to finish k! i always there for u, believe me....

ujian2....

coming up next : Mathematic 4 ( mechaniscs)

need to score this one also!! jumping for my aim!! pray for me k.

a day before yesterday, i played wif the ice in the fridge, the ice flake... then i collect the ice in a bucket, then i made ice balls!! so cute.... but then my hands hurt la, coz its freezing cool. i manage to make 3 ice balls since the ice is not that much.. then, to express my depression, i aim that ball to the wall outside. i forgot that KTT just built the zinc roof in between our block and the ice balls break apart when its hit the wall and fall on that zinc roof! the noice is so loud and the pakcik that doing the roof still there, on the roof, putting glue i think... kekeke .... terus aku lari sorok kat dalam rumah.. pakcik tu dongak atas cari sapa culprit tu... kekeke... sorry pakcik, sye terlupa! hehehe.. but it was so enjoyful!!! =)

Phy2ics PapeR 2

wah.... so crazy one.. the Q was.... err... donnow... the biggest mistake, discuss after the exam! never do that again k!!! it just make me feel worse, plus worrying for the thing that had past and cant be change nemore..... i realize i had done lots of careless mistake.... huhu..... Ya Allah, lembutkanlah hati pemeriksa kertasku...... i donnow what else to expect except pray to Allah...

up next : pure math 1

shotting for the highest. hope will reach my aim.

i donnow why, suddenly i develop an interest in PANDA.... it just so damn cute.... huhu... i love it.. wish can have a panda, but sadly cant. they are endangered species. so, what can i do is help to protect them.... :D

CheMy Pap3r 3

its was like hell... OMG, my lab... i dont know what went wrong... my whole paper 3 i think suck big time. its like i threw all the marks into the dustbin like nothing only... huhu....

now i can just pray to Allah... i cant do anything else aedy..... that day after the paper, i cried so hard!! then when my friend asked me how izit, i cry again. i called my mom, i cry again.. that day alone, i cried like 5 times....

now im struggling for my next paper, physics... so many things to be remembered...... hurm... Allahumma najjahna fil imtihan!!!!

hurm... pray for my next paper yeah!

suNbuRn!

last sunday, i went to botanical garden putrajaya... wif my usrah group...
nothing much actually during that programme except have to walk around that extremely big place.... so tiring and i sweat like hell... and i didnt expect that i'll get sunburn!!! by the tyme i went back home, oh my God, my face aedy like zebra loh... this sunburn is worse than the one i got during the FESKOTT day.... huhu...

tomorrow exam! chemistry practical... pray for me k? and if i had ever hurt anyone, forgive me..... huhu.... i dont know la... this is the real exam but my preparation...... donnow la..... confuse! trial... real... this is my future! =) shooting for the highest star.

AS LEVEL!

exam is coming, im still playing.. how brilliant i am!!! too lazy nowadays too study.... huhu... ye la, trial exam itself had been 3 weeks, it was like hell.. so now, the spirit to study is wearing off.. huhu...! AS exam is much worse, 5 weeks! starting 15th May til 13th June.... Allah, give me courage! i hope everything will go well... even im gonna be so depressed wif exam period.....

my result of my trial, 2 A, 1 B, 1 C. huhu.... what wif that C!! but the result is not fair what, coz some of the question is from past year and i had did it, so it doesnt really reflect my performance loh..... but neway, thanks Allah! i didnt expect some of the result coz the Qs were hard. gonna improve! insyaAllah.

where actually is my home ryte now ah?! huhu... im not sure whether me or them is suddenly bisu or what.. n i dont even know now what is the reasons coz i cant figure out nemore. i tried, n now im tired of trying. so, let it be... Allah, give me patient to stand and tolerate wif this...... =)

everyone trying to get a piece of my attention, but i myself have limited tyme.... i have to study.... i dont know how to manage all these... friends, i hope u guys understand k... my result, i need to improve it big time, so i need to work harder even im too lazy to do that. pray for me, insyaAllah, i'll find time for u all! i love you and i cant efford neglecting u guys... <3

intErnEt!!

at last! after 3 weeks without internet!! i aedy got almost all of my result for my trail exam.. some ok, some not so good... huhu... but oklah, alhamdulillah, just be happy... hehehe.. just worry how gonna tell my mom.... hehe..

exam is coming next week. the real AS Level exam.... ya Allah, berilah kejayaan kepadaku....... 4 subjects.. hope all gonna do well. coz tak snggup la klu kena repeat... satu penyeksaan yg teramat sgt....

pray for me k my friends?

i cant wait to go back to my home!!!! last week, i just go back to my grandma place.. it was nice but still i like home better... at my grandma place, i eat sooooooo much.. but when i came back here, guess what my friend said? why u look makin kurus nih? hampeh!!! penat sye makan dgn banyaknye tau! ok, fine, i will eat more! hehehe...

hOme..

i wanna go home.. dont care.... huhu... just waiting for my mom.. if she manage to find the plane ticket for me... i mean my dad la... i dont want to go home by bus loh, time consuming a.. so, just wait of got appropriate flight la.. coz most of it, the time is so not suitable, early in the morning.. how on earth i wanna go to airport early in the morning from my dear collage. so hard la... thats y. i dont think i can go home... coz the flight i just check just now, got only the one which early in the morning.. 0730.. adoi! i wanna go home... mummy.... =(

just now, i was moody.. even now i think i am still moody.. wanna know why? becoz my cellphone terjatuh and now got a scratch on it.. even a small kesan, but still, it affect my mood.. huhu.. i love my cellphone so badly...

exam.... i pass the 1st week... ok, got another one week and 3 days to go! i cant wait until finish pre AS! wanna go ice skating wif hanisah! heheh... if can la. she finished her matrix aedy! congratz honey!!! miss u soooo much la... ha! last nyte i chat wif husna... haha.. so happy!!! love u guys soooo damn much tau!! nothing can ever replace u two...

its a happy life when u have real loves that never will ever change even when time change... these loves r the one which accompany u thro out ur life, never stop, and give u the reasons to get out of bed every morning... so glad!!!

pRe AS

EXAM MOOD. waa... its only the third day but i aedy feel like a month.. dont like la going thro exam season.. its like going thro a long hardship, where its not that hardship la.. just dont like it...

plus i will eat a lot and a lot.... even now i spend so much on food alone.. but luckly my beloved parents still support me.. thanks mummy n daddy!

about my paper, so glad that chemy and bio paper 1, the question is the same as the past year paper.. and we, i mean me and my housemates, we done it aedy... so its ok la... but for physics paper two, waa, got projectile loh....and i forgot it aedy... so what i answered that day aso im not sure... for math, it was ok la except for one question... huhu... but overall, ok lah! alhamdulillah! haha, my english! its so bad now.... how gonna sit for IELTS later ha...?

i want strawberry la......... the red juicy strawberry.... waa.. cant wait to go to cameron!

long tyme ago...

its been really a while since i write here.. why? coz i didnt get a chance to use the laptop, or the truth, i cannot bring myself of asking them to use the laptop. huhu.. why????

in one week tyme, im gonna have my preAS exam... huhu.... another exam loh, i dont like it...... toooooo many things to cover, to read, to memorise.... later my head will be so saturated i believe.. haha... chemistry, im almost finish revising it, bio just chapter 2, 3, and 4. physic not yet.. math in the process of doing the past year again...

last nite was a horror.. my blok was on fire... so terrified... ok, like this.. last nite, i was using laptop, not this one... then suddenly me n my housemate smell something burning and saw the smoke.. then my another housemate who was downstairs wif her bf ask me to call the warden... so, terus jadi kelam kabut... after called the warden, my friend asked me to go out from the building... okay.. now officially im scared... i was in the PJ! so, i change my pant, then nervously find my wallet and my phone, then made my way downstair.. when i arrived downstair, i was so shocked.. the apartment which was on fire is just below my level.. then i saw a big fire!!! owh God, save my apartment!!! that tyme, i had start crying. im so scared, then Chuwat came down... after a few attemp to put off the fire and some breaking thingy had been done, alhamdulillah, the fire was succesfully gone....

that tyme i heard the naseb of the penghuni of the apartment... so pity.... all of them went home except one person and that girl went to her friend's apartment that ty,e.. so she didnt has a chance to save anything of her stuff, including her LAPTOP!! im so sorry for what happen k! and for my classmate, Chui Yen, Sarjuna and Michelle, be patient wif what happen... guess u guys have to buy lots and lots of clothes for a full closet back..... hurm.. i will help u yang mana kite mampu k! but inform me k dear...

some pic from the house....

doNNow

i donnow actually what to write coz too many things in my mind... so, im not sure what i suppose to tell people, what i should just keep to myself. for sure, i keep most of it in my mind, and in my beloved secret box.. hehehe.. one month to go to AS LEVEL EXAM.... trying my best to be the best....... love you all!

public transport disasterS

last friday, it was a very damn tiring day. i was planning to go to sunway pyramid wif this fren one week ago, but suddenly, i cannot contact that person on that day. so i decide, fine, i go alone. when im about to go on the bus, Rafika said she aso going to sunway!! so, i just go wif her la, since she aso was going alone.

arrived at KTM nilai, we missed the train coz have to walk from the bus, then Q for the ticket. oklah, finally, at 1245, we got into the train.... stopped at KL sentral to pray. then leave my bag there, take ktm to subang jaya. our train late by 2 minutes.. so far, the journey is considered nice.

arrived at KTM subang jaya, we saw this daif looking bus (sorry ye org subang), i donnow what to take, since Rafika aedy did 'research' for that day journey. so, we have to walk about 4 minutes to find the bus stop of RapidKL. hop on the bus, we start our journey by bus... ok, ok, ok, suddenly, the driver sais that this bus cannot go to sunway pyramid n he 'halau' all the passenger out. when i was out of the bus, then only i saw one of the tyres was flat... now, we r in the middle of nowhere. we totally donnow what to do. luckly there was this uncle who wif us and bring us to the nearest bus stop... ok, waiting for another RapidKL nervously, wif my stomach singing a hungry song. of coz, its almost 4 by that tyme! ok, there is the bus. we hop on, the bus move, for like 2 minutes, then stopped. the driver went down and sembang wif other bus drivers there. me n Rafika so bengang that tyme.. we wait for 5 minutes, nothing happen. so we went down, and try to tahan taxi. n its starting to rain!!! shit!

after 3 failed attemp, we got a taxi. cost us 7 ringgit for the taxi!!! ok, at last we arrived at the sunway pyramid! first stop, eat!! then wonder around trying to find a birthday present for my friends. all of the things there, mostly a 3-digit ringgit.... so, NO!!

after a really tiring day, and my foot started to feel the pain, i was wearing heels, of coz. we went out, ask the guard where the bus to KL, he pointed the place. we walked far....... ok, wait there wif others... one bus came, we asked the driver, the driver said we have to wait across the road.. its a highway, how?!?! then we walk like one kilometer running for the bus, when we arrived at the place where lots of people aso waiting, the bus just closed the door right in front of us! we ran here for u!! damn!!!! wait for like 10 more minutes, the bus came. the RapidKL packed like sardin, i have to squeeze in...hurm.. enought about bus n the terrible journey on it..

arrived at klsentral, really damn tired, ready to go back, suddenly there is this announcement.. all KTM had broke down, we cant estimated what tyme it will be back operating and u r suggest to find alternative transport - something like that... what?!!! i need to go to Kepong, and Rafika wanna go back to collage.... there was lots of people stuck at klsentral.... so, no other choice, i called my aunty, asking her how to go back to Kepong. rafika, no choice but to follow me. so my aunty said she will come and pick me up at klsentral. thanks God!!! if not i donnow what happen to me....

its was so tiring day, bad luck day... by the tyme we finally arrived at kepong, its almost 12...since we go to my uncle kedai to eat first... hurm.. collapsed!

tiReD

its feel like a long week, a tiring routine, and a bored one.. keep on living the same life, STUDY! i dont know that life as a collage student can be so limited like this.. plus i heard next week gonna have a monthly test for all subject. hurm, im sick of test n exam already. but got another 8 more months, 3 internal exams and 2 international exams.. huhu... and lots of test in between i guess..

i got my durian!!! akhirnya, apa yg diidam-idamkan dpt jua... wlupun tak puas sbnrnya.. nak lagik!!!

esok, going back!! so excited loh, got to go out from KTT for a while. so tension la being here 24-7. huhu... wanna enjoy my weekend to the fullest! i'll update later k.

busY

the week of busy!!! apakah?! sgt busy la this week, even agak lepak sbnrnya...

on sunday, i help mpp at DU to set up the dwan for our senior coming back. even the lecturer who in charge at the DU thought im one of the MPP. huh?!! noo!!! but nice la, spend tyme wif my frensss

then start class.. n classes.. some more classes, and more... hahaha.. but our bio lecturer had resign to continue her study, now we have no bio lecturer.. so, we r left behind da.. later have to study by myself la. waa.... i wanna go home!!!!!

im too tired aedy.. tomorrow got class starting at 8.... wish can go back this weekend la..

Shenton, we meet next week k!!! cant wait loh.

heart broken

who are you to judge that?? im far from heart broken. u didnt even know me. so, stay away!

i wish one thing, i wish life will now turn the way that i want. please my Lord, please....

i wanna go home!! i planned to go this weekend, then chuwat said she is busy this weekend, so we will go next weekend, guess what, next weekend my opah will not be home.. so i hv to go next next weekend... waaaaa!!!!!!!!

i donnow what should i do now......

mummy.......

piNk reBEL!

actually, i had made a really long list of my pink things. loooooooong one and it took me forever to really list down all my pink things, and thanks to blogger who saved everything every minutes, and some mistake, i lost the list! so, i wont do it again coz its not an easy task.. hehehe..
plus, its a good thing, if u guys wanna know how crazy i am over pink stuff, meet myself personally, and then u'll know. hehe...

being a parent or parents never been easy. solute to my mom and dad who been doing that perfectly over 20 years now. this week, as my parents arent home, i have to take care of my sisters and bro, and trust me, its not easy at all. so damn hard and i cant believe my parents manage all thier sons and daughters all these while. thanks mom and dad! love u always!!

to daddy, Happy birthday dad! i love you so much, and hope Allah will bless you always. wish u a very happy life and may all your dreams and hopes come true! thanks dad!

dream bOY?

yesterday, a guy ask me, just as a friend, apakah ciri2 lelaki idaman.. wow, only that tyme i realize, i cant answer that. yeah, may be i can answer that question if Husna and Hanisah ask me, but if other, i cant! just i dont wanna freak people out.. kekeke.. lyke its so damn freaky.. it just i dont think i should answer it to some strangers... i mean friends, but who didnt really know me. coz if they do really know me, u will get the answer without me telling u.

quite sad... im home but my parents arent... they went outstation for the whole week, until i went back to collage.. whats the point im being home?!? sob..sob.. borink... i want my mummie... kekek.. not until that stage lah.. styll ok, coz i had spend last week wif them. just so bored now staying home alone, while all my sis n bros go to school and work... help me!

phYsics nOte..

at last, i manage to finish doing my physics note.. huhu.. so lazy la... another week and i will be back to KTT.. hurm.. i dont want to! can i go somewhere else? i wish i can..

while my parents having a hols to, we went 1) to bowling centre at Jitra. its an okay trip, plus the bowling centre must be thankful becoz i came, i clean their longkang lots of tyme. haha. and one thing, the shoe there stink! so badly.. huhu, i thought its a new place, how come? 2) dine outside.. donnow why but my dad had bring us for lunch outside twice now. 1st day we went to Pokok Ciku. damn, the food there very nice! trust me. 2nd day, we went so far to serdang to my aunty place just to have our lunch there.. hehe. but the similirity between that two days, i always finish eating the last. i donnow why now, but i always finish last, here or at collage, always.. hehe

KYLE XY continue!! i love it..

heaVen!

im home... glad to be home, the only place where true love is. not everything at home is pleasant, but the love complement it, make it perfect!

the trip home although wasnt so pleasant. i cant sleep again throught the journey! that terrible bus! i donnow what the hell i paid 33 ringgit for! its horrible, when it will be better? i dont like looking at sweet memories, but the only trip that is so damn nice is that nyte.... hurm...ah! go away sadness!

KTT, im tired to be at that land, the land of plastic. im confused all the tyme im there. its so weird when i have to wonder around searching for answer, searching for what did i do wrong coz usually, my faulty will haunted me, but why i cant see this tyme, even when the world crush on me? may be becoz i did nothing, or may be its fate, or most probably my pay for my sins in past. hurm... why everybody is faking?! weird..

physics! thats the only book i open since im home. but oklah, better than i didnt open any at all. later may be chemy!

sleEp..

Something horrible happen yesterday, n i even cant believe, the impact, i cant sleep. the thing happen is out of sudden n i was awake all nite to think, i tried to figure out what did i do wrong but styll, i cant manage to find it coz i didnt do it...so, i didnt sleep at all last nite n now here i am still awake..but feel so blurry now... otak pun dh tak berapa betul....kejap lagi nak kena tido nih....

today got exam briefing which mostly is the 'warning' from en razib since the result of As n A level is worse this tyme... i aso quite shock n scared when i heard, 20+ people cant fly coz didnt have enought cut-off point.. then the one-year student As result, lots of them have to repeat paper. plus, he is so mad coz his students wear jeans n tshirt to classes...then lots of the students wrote at friendster about how KTT is bad la, KTT is not nice n so on....i wonder how he find out that one.... hehehe...

plus, my midsem exam is next week..one day more to prepare myself.. waa..sooooo many thing have to memorise, remember and understand..n i hope this midsem result will be better than the final exam before, InsyaAllah.. i need to be better!!

Ya Allah, plz give me courage and strength to continue my journey here despite the obstacles and fitnah (dear reader, if u really understand what fitnah mean k! dont go salah faham...) being put on me, and plz give me an excellent memory, and give me success throught my life. i hope the ujian U give to me will give me strength and prepare me for another bright day, InsyaAllah.... without U, i will collapse anytime and lose my way...

exam!!

another exam is coming n now after 3 months, im losing my perspective... huhu... now too lazy to study, sad~ how am i gonna perform in this exam.. pluz, it will include almost all the syllabus of AS Level exam!! waaa.. i got less that one week, wif no study week, n the lazy feeling too study! plz, help me!!!!

my best friend came to KTT and spend a day wif me!!! wa, so happy.. she came, we share a lot of story, n so many things.... i feel a lil cheer up coz i can tell all my feeling to her, coz telling to someone who doesnt care really annoying -but trust me, that person didnt care at all- hurm, thanks Honey!!! we went uphill, even during rain. play the rain together ma.. hehe. suddenly the hill got so many air terjun, since its raining... until almost mgrb, we went back to collage.. then that nite we chat until 3 am! lots of catch up to do.. hehe.. the best part, both of us got cold -main sgt hujan!- hahaha. i aso brought her to me ****a* and ****a*. then a tour around the KTT, but the place she ask to see twice is Student representative board.. why?~ should ask her herself la!

Lab

heh..new semester, suddenly got a lot of experiment.. but this morning, the most unforgotten. we were doing chemistry experiment. one of the test involve warming the substance, damn it produce ammonia gas.. yeah it turn the red litmus paper to blue, but i believe it also turn myself to blue. the smeel is so horrible, causing me to go dizzy, then got headache!!! after that, the whole tyme in the lab, i was in a bad mood since my head is killing me.. hurm... Amonnia gas!

then when i returned to my room, the first thing i do is do my prayer, that take a bath! wif a hope it will reduce my headache..after the bath, i feel so cool... i only can pray that im not gonna get fever, thanks God i didnt! then when my head is getting better, ****a* sms me n ask me to go n have dinner wif her..huhu, as a friend, i said sure..luckly by the tyme i went down to meet her, i had recovered fully.. Thanks Allah!

im tired, coz today i have to do lots of homework as other can do it this weekend..bio, chemy, english, math...

girlfriends....

now, im living my life g among girlfriends... eh, im a straight person k! just making friends.. n i got two great new friends actually..

*****a*
she is a nice girl, cute also.. really sweet, so very sweet. the nice thing is, im sharing the same feeling wif her, i mean our probs r kinda the same, so, we r in the same boat. she is a good listener, and good friend aso. i can cry in front of her, and share tear wif her..

****a*
she aso a nice girl, very talkative one! we can spend whole day n she will never run out of story, of coz its aso becoz im also talkative, i guess.. my friend said i look alike like ****a* but i donnow..dont think so... she is a great company, really enjoy myself n her when we go out. she is really nice, she is encouraging me to forget my probs n so on...plus we can chat until 1 am in the morning, the distance between the place im standing n she is, like 5 metres (pretty weird ryte?), until one of us is sleepy..never did that one before wif other friend, so its kinda weird and sweet.

thanks to both k! i really2 love u pals! they r really nice friends, trust me!

allowance..

the allowance for the new sem had been in!! 2500, extra 80 dollar per month. quite ok i guess..huhu..
i went out wif farah n nad..
got a new bag, cost me 90 dollars- the most expensive bag i ever get, but its a standard price i guess for the size of bag, and after all, i bought the brand, not the bag i guess...
then two pair of shoes, cute!
i want to go home.....

back!!

im back at this land.. what am i doing here? i donnow.. after physics lecture just now, my head like wanna blow off and suddenly im out of my mood. coz of that, here i am, in front of the comp, too lazy too study anything ryte now! hurm.. damn!

okay..

im doing good actually. that day, may be tgh emo lebey kot..haha..
but after all, im okay..

n aku beraya kat cameron seyh.tak ke pelik? budak2 zaman sekarang! wakakaka..
best gak beraya kat cameron..i got my strawberry!!! mcm kanak-kanak ribena dah bila dpt strawberry, plus whipped cream! even the smell of strawberry is nice, i love it!
then i got my tomatoes. i donnow but thanks to Hami, now i love tomatoes, i even can eat it raw. before this, i cant stand tomatoes..how wonderful! and cameron is quite cool, even not as cool as before.. each tyme i went there, its getting warmer and warmer..

2 days to go before i have to go back to collage. im surprise, coz i missed jogging, studying, and of coz, i want to go to more SYS's class coz my physics lecture, all these 3 weeks, only got one class. im getting worry....

tomorrow im going out to kangar.. cant wait!

back..

im going back to kl.. reluctantly.. my holiday end next week, but since all of my family are going, i have no choice... sad what.. have to be back in that kind of world.. huhu.. im so stress out.. wif study, wif life, wif friends, wif everything. im willing to kill people.. hurm.. nak kena pack barang balik.. baru dua malam seyh aku tidur dekat rumah.. sedey je...huhu.. i have to undergo this study things for about 12 more months n i only went thro this for about 4 months...huhu..

i really want to pull myself away..i cant do it anymore.... i dont know how im gonna get 4 A in AS n A2, when all my internal exams, i suck really bad at it. ALONE!!

Happy Raya

to all my friends, happy raya..this moment, i take this opportunity to say im so sorry for anything i did that hurt any of u. im so sorry. n love u all..

n im sorry if i didnt reply any of ur sms n call, my handphone is broken, so im living wif no handphone..its hard, but i had been thro 2 week without it, so, its okay.. ryte now, i got another big thing to face.. pray that i manage to stand still even after going thro this hardship... God, help me...