CheMy Pap3r 3

its was like hell... OMG, my lab... i dont know what went wrong... my whole paper 3 i think suck big time. its like i threw all the marks into the dustbin like nothing only... huhu....

now i can just pray to Allah... i cant do anything else aedy..... that day after the paper, i cried so hard!! then when my friend asked me how izit, i cry again. i called my mom, i cry again.. that day alone, i cried like 5 times....

now im struggling for my next paper, physics... so many things to be remembered...... hurm... Allahumma najjahna fil imtihan!!!!

hurm... pray for my next paper yeah!

suNbuRn!

last sunday, i went to botanical garden putrajaya... wif my usrah group...
nothing much actually during that programme except have to walk around that extremely big place.... so tiring and i sweat like hell... and i didnt expect that i'll get sunburn!!! by the tyme i went back home, oh my God, my face aedy like zebra loh... this sunburn is worse than the one i got during the FESKOTT day.... huhu...

tomorrow exam! chemistry practical... pray for me k? and if i had ever hurt anyone, forgive me..... huhu.... i dont know la... this is the real exam but my preparation...... donnow la..... confuse! trial... real... this is my future! =) shooting for the highest star.

AS LEVEL!

exam is coming, im still playing.. how brilliant i am!!! too lazy nowadays too study.... huhu... ye la, trial exam itself had been 3 weeks, it was like hell.. so now, the spirit to study is wearing off.. huhu...! AS exam is much worse, 5 weeks! starting 15th May til 13th June.... Allah, give me courage! i hope everything will go well... even im gonna be so depressed wif exam period.....

my result of my trial, 2 A, 1 B, 1 C. huhu.... what wif that C!! but the result is not fair what, coz some of the question is from past year and i had did it, so it doesnt really reflect my performance loh..... but neway, thanks Allah! i didnt expect some of the result coz the Qs were hard. gonna improve! insyaAllah.

where actually is my home ryte now ah?! huhu... im not sure whether me or them is suddenly bisu or what.. n i dont even know now what is the reasons coz i cant figure out nemore. i tried, n now im tired of trying. so, let it be... Allah, give me patient to stand and tolerate wif this...... =)

everyone trying to get a piece of my attention, but i myself have limited tyme.... i have to study.... i dont know how to manage all these... friends, i hope u guys understand k... my result, i need to improve it big time, so i need to work harder even im too lazy to do that. pray for me, insyaAllah, i'll find time for u all! i love you and i cant efford neglecting u guys... <3

intErnEt!!

at last! after 3 weeks without internet!! i aedy got almost all of my result for my trail exam.. some ok, some not so good... huhu... but oklah, alhamdulillah, just be happy... hehehe.. just worry how gonna tell my mom.... hehe..

exam is coming next week. the real AS Level exam.... ya Allah, berilah kejayaan kepadaku....... 4 subjects.. hope all gonna do well. coz tak snggup la klu kena repeat... satu penyeksaan yg teramat sgt....

pray for me k my friends?

i cant wait to go back to my home!!!! last week, i just go back to my grandma place.. it was nice but still i like home better... at my grandma place, i eat sooooooo much.. but when i came back here, guess what my friend said? why u look makin kurus nih? hampeh!!! penat sye makan dgn banyaknye tau! ok, fine, i will eat more! hehehe...

hOme..

i wanna go home.. dont care.... huhu... just waiting for my mom.. if she manage to find the plane ticket for me... i mean my dad la... i dont want to go home by bus loh, time consuming a.. so, just wait of got appropriate flight la.. coz most of it, the time is so not suitable, early in the morning.. how on earth i wanna go to airport early in the morning from my dear collage. so hard la... thats y. i dont think i can go home... coz the flight i just check just now, got only the one which early in the morning.. 0730.. adoi! i wanna go home... mummy.... =(

just now, i was moody.. even now i think i am still moody.. wanna know why? becoz my cellphone terjatuh and now got a scratch on it.. even a small kesan, but still, it affect my mood.. huhu.. i love my cellphone so badly...

exam.... i pass the 1st week... ok, got another one week and 3 days to go! i cant wait until finish pre AS! wanna go ice skating wif hanisah! heheh... if can la. she finished her matrix aedy! congratz honey!!! miss u soooo much la... ha! last nyte i chat wif husna... haha.. so happy!!! love u guys soooo damn much tau!! nothing can ever replace u two...

its a happy life when u have real loves that never will ever change even when time change... these loves r the one which accompany u thro out ur life, never stop, and give u the reasons to get out of bed every morning... so glad!!!

pRe AS

EXAM MOOD. waa... its only the third day but i aedy feel like a month.. dont like la going thro exam season.. its like going thro a long hardship, where its not that hardship la.. just dont like it...

plus i will eat a lot and a lot.... even now i spend so much on food alone.. but luckly my beloved parents still support me.. thanks mummy n daddy!

about my paper, so glad that chemy and bio paper 1, the question is the same as the past year paper.. and we, i mean me and my housemates, we done it aedy... so its ok la... but for physics paper two, waa, got projectile loh....and i forgot it aedy... so what i answered that day aso im not sure... for math, it was ok la except for one question... huhu... but overall, ok lah! alhamdulillah! haha, my english! its so bad now.... how gonna sit for IELTS later ha...?

i want strawberry la......... the red juicy strawberry.... waa.. cant wait to go to cameron!

long tyme ago...

its been really a while since i write here.. why? coz i didnt get a chance to use the laptop, or the truth, i cannot bring myself of asking them to use the laptop. huhu.. why????

in one week tyme, im gonna have my preAS exam... huhu.... another exam loh, i dont like it...... toooooo many things to cover, to read, to memorise.... later my head will be so saturated i believe.. haha... chemistry, im almost finish revising it, bio just chapter 2, 3, and 4. physic not yet.. math in the process of doing the past year again...

last nite was a horror.. my blok was on fire... so terrified... ok, like this.. last nite, i was using laptop, not this one... then suddenly me n my housemate smell something burning and saw the smoke.. then my another housemate who was downstairs wif her bf ask me to call the warden... so, terus jadi kelam kabut... after called the warden, my friend asked me to go out from the building... okay.. now officially im scared... i was in the PJ! so, i change my pant, then nervously find my wallet and my phone, then made my way downstair.. when i arrived downstair, i was so shocked.. the apartment which was on fire is just below my level.. then i saw a big fire!!! owh God, save my apartment!!! that tyme, i had start crying. im so scared, then Chuwat came down... after a few attemp to put off the fire and some breaking thingy had been done, alhamdulillah, the fire was succesfully gone....

that tyme i heard the naseb of the penghuni of the apartment... so pity.... all of them went home except one person and that girl went to her friend's apartment that ty,e.. so she didnt has a chance to save anything of her stuff, including her LAPTOP!! im so sorry for what happen k! and for my classmate, Chui Yen, Sarjuna and Michelle, be patient wif what happen... guess u guys have to buy lots and lots of clothes for a full closet back..... hurm.. i will help u yang mana kite mampu k! but inform me k dear...

some pic from the house....

doNNow

i donnow actually what to write coz too many things in my mind... so, im not sure what i suppose to tell people, what i should just keep to myself. for sure, i keep most of it in my mind, and in my beloved secret box.. hehehe.. one month to go to AS LEVEL EXAM.... trying my best to be the best....... love you all!

public transport disasterS

last friday, it was a very damn tiring day. i was planning to go to sunway pyramid wif this fren one week ago, but suddenly, i cannot contact that person on that day. so i decide, fine, i go alone. when im about to go on the bus, Rafika said she aso going to sunway!! so, i just go wif her la, since she aso was going alone.

arrived at KTM nilai, we missed the train coz have to walk from the bus, then Q for the ticket. oklah, finally, at 1245, we got into the train.... stopped at KL sentral to pray. then leave my bag there, take ktm to subang jaya. our train late by 2 minutes.. so far, the journey is considered nice.

arrived at KTM subang jaya, we saw this daif looking bus (sorry ye org subang), i donnow what to take, since Rafika aedy did 'research' for that day journey. so, we have to walk about 4 minutes to find the bus stop of RapidKL. hop on the bus, we start our journey by bus... ok, ok, ok, suddenly, the driver sais that this bus cannot go to sunway pyramid n he 'halau' all the passenger out. when i was out of the bus, then only i saw one of the tyres was flat... now, we r in the middle of nowhere. we totally donnow what to do. luckly there was this uncle who wif us and bring us to the nearest bus stop... ok, waiting for another RapidKL nervously, wif my stomach singing a hungry song. of coz, its almost 4 by that tyme! ok, there is the bus. we hop on, the bus move, for like 2 minutes, then stopped. the driver went down and sembang wif other bus drivers there. me n Rafika so bengang that tyme.. we wait for 5 minutes, nothing happen. so we went down, and try to tahan taxi. n its starting to rain!!! shit!

after 3 failed attemp, we got a taxi. cost us 7 ringgit for the taxi!!! ok, at last we arrived at the sunway pyramid! first stop, eat!! then wonder around trying to find a birthday present for my friends. all of the things there, mostly a 3-digit ringgit.... so, NO!!

after a really tiring day, and my foot started to feel the pain, i was wearing heels, of coz. we went out, ask the guard where the bus to KL, he pointed the place. we walked far....... ok, wait there wif others... one bus came, we asked the driver, the driver said we have to wait across the road.. its a highway, how?!?! then we walk like one kilometer running for the bus, when we arrived at the place where lots of people aso waiting, the bus just closed the door right in front of us! we ran here for u!! damn!!!! wait for like 10 more minutes, the bus came. the RapidKL packed like sardin, i have to squeeze in...hurm.. enought about bus n the terrible journey on it..

arrived at klsentral, really damn tired, ready to go back, suddenly there is this announcement.. all KTM had broke down, we cant estimated what tyme it will be back operating and u r suggest to find alternative transport - something like that... what?!!! i need to go to Kepong, and Rafika wanna go back to collage.... there was lots of people stuck at klsentral.... so, no other choice, i called my aunty, asking her how to go back to Kepong. rafika, no choice but to follow me. so my aunty said she will come and pick me up at klsentral. thanks God!!! if not i donnow what happen to me....

its was so tiring day, bad luck day... by the tyme we finally arrived at kepong, its almost 12...since we go to my uncle kedai to eat first... hurm.. collapsed!

tiReD

its feel like a long week, a tiring routine, and a bored one.. keep on living the same life, STUDY! i dont know that life as a collage student can be so limited like this.. plus i heard next week gonna have a monthly test for all subject. hurm, im sick of test n exam already. but got another 8 more months, 3 internal exams and 2 international exams.. huhu... and lots of test in between i guess..

i got my durian!!! akhirnya, apa yg diidam-idamkan dpt jua... wlupun tak puas sbnrnya.. nak lagik!!!

esok, going back!! so excited loh, got to go out from KTT for a while. so tension la being here 24-7. huhu... wanna enjoy my weekend to the fullest! i'll update later k.

busY

the week of busy!!! apakah?! sgt busy la this week, even agak lepak sbnrnya...

on sunday, i help mpp at DU to set up the dwan for our senior coming back. even the lecturer who in charge at the DU thought im one of the MPP. huh?!! noo!!! but nice la, spend tyme wif my frensss

then start class.. n classes.. some more classes, and more... hahaha.. but our bio lecturer had resign to continue her study, now we have no bio lecturer.. so, we r left behind da.. later have to study by myself la. waa.... i wanna go home!!!!!

im too tired aedy.. tomorrow got class starting at 8.... wish can go back this weekend la..

Shenton, we meet next week k!!! cant wait loh.

heart broken

who are you to judge that?? im far from heart broken. u didnt even know me. so, stay away!

i wish one thing, i wish life will now turn the way that i want. please my Lord, please....

i wanna go home!! i planned to go this weekend, then chuwat said she is busy this weekend, so we will go next weekend, guess what, next weekend my opah will not be home.. so i hv to go next next weekend... waaaaa!!!!!!!!

i donnow what should i do now......

mummy.......

piNk reBEL!

actually, i had made a really long list of my pink things. loooooooong one and it took me forever to really list down all my pink things, and thanks to blogger who saved everything every minutes, and some mistake, i lost the list! so, i wont do it again coz its not an easy task.. hehehe..
plus, its a good thing, if u guys wanna know how crazy i am over pink stuff, meet myself personally, and then u'll know. hehe...

being a parent or parents never been easy. solute to my mom and dad who been doing that perfectly over 20 years now. this week, as my parents arent home, i have to take care of my sisters and bro, and trust me, its not easy at all. so damn hard and i cant believe my parents manage all thier sons and daughters all these while. thanks mom and dad! love u always!!

to daddy, Happy birthday dad! i love you so much, and hope Allah will bless you always. wish u a very happy life and may all your dreams and hopes come true! thanks dad!

dream bOY?

yesterday, a guy ask me, just as a friend, apakah ciri2 lelaki idaman.. wow, only that tyme i realize, i cant answer that. yeah, may be i can answer that question if Husna and Hanisah ask me, but if other, i cant! just i dont wanna freak people out.. kekeke.. lyke its so damn freaky.. it just i dont think i should answer it to some strangers... i mean friends, but who didnt really know me. coz if they do really know me, u will get the answer without me telling u.

quite sad... im home but my parents arent... they went outstation for the whole week, until i went back to collage.. whats the point im being home?!? sob..sob.. borink... i want my mummie... kekek.. not until that stage lah.. styll ok, coz i had spend last week wif them. just so bored now staying home alone, while all my sis n bros go to school and work... help me!

phYsics nOte..

at last, i manage to finish doing my physics note.. huhu.. so lazy la... another week and i will be back to KTT.. hurm.. i dont want to! can i go somewhere else? i wish i can..

while my parents having a hols to, we went 1) to bowling centre at Jitra. its an okay trip, plus the bowling centre must be thankful becoz i came, i clean their longkang lots of tyme. haha. and one thing, the shoe there stink! so badly.. huhu, i thought its a new place, how come? 2) dine outside.. donnow why but my dad had bring us for lunch outside twice now. 1st day we went to Pokok Ciku. damn, the food there very nice! trust me. 2nd day, we went so far to serdang to my aunty place just to have our lunch there.. hehe. but the similirity between that two days, i always finish eating the last. i donnow why now, but i always finish last, here or at collage, always.. hehe

KYLE XY continue!! i love it..

heaVen!

im home... glad to be home, the only place where true love is. not everything at home is pleasant, but the love complement it, make it perfect!

the trip home although wasnt so pleasant. i cant sleep again throught the journey! that terrible bus! i donnow what the hell i paid 33 ringgit for! its horrible, when it will be better? i dont like looking at sweet memories, but the only trip that is so damn nice is that nyte.... hurm...ah! go away sadness!

KTT, im tired to be at that land, the land of plastic. im confused all the tyme im there. its so weird when i have to wonder around searching for answer, searching for what did i do wrong coz usually, my faulty will haunted me, but why i cant see this tyme, even when the world crush on me? may be becoz i did nothing, or may be its fate, or most probably my pay for my sins in past. hurm... why everybody is faking?! weird..

physics! thats the only book i open since im home. but oklah, better than i didnt open any at all. later may be chemy!

sleEp..

Something horrible happen yesterday, n i even cant believe, the impact, i cant sleep. the thing happen is out of sudden n i was awake all nite to think, i tried to figure out what did i do wrong but styll, i cant manage to find it coz i didnt do it...so, i didnt sleep at all last nite n now here i am still awake..but feel so blurry now... otak pun dh tak berapa betul....kejap lagi nak kena tido nih....

today got exam briefing which mostly is the 'warning' from en razib since the result of As n A level is worse this tyme... i aso quite shock n scared when i heard, 20+ people cant fly coz didnt have enought cut-off point.. then the one-year student As result, lots of them have to repeat paper. plus, he is so mad coz his students wear jeans n tshirt to classes...then lots of the students wrote at friendster about how KTT is bad la, KTT is not nice n so on....i wonder how he find out that one.... hehehe...

plus, my midsem exam is next week..one day more to prepare myself.. waa..sooooo many thing have to memorise, remember and understand..n i hope this midsem result will be better than the final exam before, InsyaAllah.. i need to be better!!

Ya Allah, plz give me courage and strength to continue my journey here despite the obstacles and fitnah (dear reader, if u really understand what fitnah mean k! dont go salah faham...) being put on me, and plz give me an excellent memory, and give me success throught my life. i hope the ujian U give to me will give me strength and prepare me for another bright day, InsyaAllah.... without U, i will collapse anytime and lose my way...

exam!!

another exam is coming n now after 3 months, im losing my perspective... huhu... now too lazy to study, sad~ how am i gonna perform in this exam.. pluz, it will include almost all the syllabus of AS Level exam!! waaa.. i got less that one week, wif no study week, n the lazy feeling too study! plz, help me!!!!

my best friend came to KTT and spend a day wif me!!! wa, so happy.. she came, we share a lot of story, n so many things.... i feel a lil cheer up coz i can tell all my feeling to her, coz telling to someone who doesnt care really annoying -but trust me, that person didnt care at all- hurm, thanks Honey!!! we went uphill, even during rain. play the rain together ma.. hehe. suddenly the hill got so many air terjun, since its raining... until almost mgrb, we went back to collage.. then that nite we chat until 3 am! lots of catch up to do.. hehe.. the best part, both of us got cold -main sgt hujan!- hahaha. i aso brought her to me ****a* and ****a*. then a tour around the KTT, but the place she ask to see twice is Student representative board.. why?~ should ask her herself la!

Lab

heh..new semester, suddenly got a lot of experiment.. but this morning, the most unforgotten. we were doing chemistry experiment. one of the test involve warming the substance, damn it produce ammonia gas.. yeah it turn the red litmus paper to blue, but i believe it also turn myself to blue. the smeel is so horrible, causing me to go dizzy, then got headache!!! after that, the whole tyme in the lab, i was in a bad mood since my head is killing me.. hurm... Amonnia gas!

then when i returned to my room, the first thing i do is do my prayer, that take a bath! wif a hope it will reduce my headache..after the bath, i feel so cool... i only can pray that im not gonna get fever, thanks God i didnt! then when my head is getting better, ****a* sms me n ask me to go n have dinner wif her..huhu, as a friend, i said sure..luckly by the tyme i went down to meet her, i had recovered fully.. Thanks Allah!

im tired, coz today i have to do lots of homework as other can do it this weekend..bio, chemy, english, math...

girlfriends....

now, im living my life g among girlfriends... eh, im a straight person k! just making friends.. n i got two great new friends actually..

*****a*
she is a nice girl, cute also.. really sweet, so very sweet. the nice thing is, im sharing the same feeling wif her, i mean our probs r kinda the same, so, we r in the same boat. she is a good listener, and good friend aso. i can cry in front of her, and share tear wif her..

****a*
she aso a nice girl, very talkative one! we can spend whole day n she will never run out of story, of coz its aso becoz im also talkative, i guess.. my friend said i look alike like ****a* but i donnow..dont think so... she is a great company, really enjoy myself n her when we go out. she is really nice, she is encouraging me to forget my probs n so on...plus we can chat until 1 am in the morning, the distance between the place im standing n she is, like 5 metres (pretty weird ryte?), until one of us is sleepy..never did that one before wif other friend, so its kinda weird and sweet.

thanks to both k! i really2 love u pals! they r really nice friends, trust me!

allowance..

the allowance for the new sem had been in!! 2500, extra 80 dollar per month. quite ok i guess..huhu..
i went out wif farah n nad..
got a new bag, cost me 90 dollars- the most expensive bag i ever get, but its a standard price i guess for the size of bag, and after all, i bought the brand, not the bag i guess...
then two pair of shoes, cute!
i want to go home.....

back!!

im back at this land.. what am i doing here? i donnow.. after physics lecture just now, my head like wanna blow off and suddenly im out of my mood. coz of that, here i am, in front of the comp, too lazy too study anything ryte now! hurm.. damn!

okay..

im doing good actually. that day, may be tgh emo lebey kot..haha..
but after all, im okay..

n aku beraya kat cameron seyh.tak ke pelik? budak2 zaman sekarang! wakakaka..
best gak beraya kat cameron..i got my strawberry!!! mcm kanak-kanak ribena dah bila dpt strawberry, plus whipped cream! even the smell of strawberry is nice, i love it!
then i got my tomatoes. i donnow but thanks to Hami, now i love tomatoes, i even can eat it raw. before this, i cant stand tomatoes..how wonderful! and cameron is quite cool, even not as cool as before.. each tyme i went there, its getting warmer and warmer..

2 days to go before i have to go back to collage. im surprise, coz i missed jogging, studying, and of coz, i want to go to more SYS's class coz my physics lecture, all these 3 weeks, only got one class. im getting worry....

tomorrow im going out to kangar.. cant wait!

back..

im going back to kl.. reluctantly.. my holiday end next week, but since all of my family are going, i have no choice... sad what.. have to be back in that kind of world.. huhu.. im so stress out.. wif study, wif life, wif friends, wif everything. im willing to kill people.. hurm.. nak kena pack barang balik.. baru dua malam seyh aku tidur dekat rumah.. sedey je...huhu.. i have to undergo this study things for about 12 more months n i only went thro this for about 4 months...huhu..

i really want to pull myself away..i cant do it anymore.... i dont know how im gonna get 4 A in AS n A2, when all my internal exams, i suck really bad at it. ALONE!!

Happy Raya

to all my friends, happy raya..this moment, i take this opportunity to say im so sorry for anything i did that hurt any of u. im so sorry. n love u all..

n im sorry if i didnt reply any of ur sms n call, my handphone is broken, so im living wif no handphone..its hard, but i had been thro 2 week without it, so, its okay.. ryte now, i got another big thing to face.. pray that i manage to stand still even after going thro this hardship... God, help me...

FastiNg

hurm... now it had already been more than a week of fasting... quite tired.. n this is the 1st time im undergo ramadhan away from my mummy n daddy... hurm... sgt sedey.. tp nk wat mcm mana kan... huhu.. suddenly rasa mcm dh guna bnyk sgt a duit jpa.. nk wat mcm mana ye.. huhu.. i dont know..

cant wait to go home!!!!!!

hOme

going home tomorrow... n just now someone told me terminal one ( the place i will be arriving at) are 10 minutes walk from ktm seremban.. now i wonder how the hell im bringing all thos stuff alone, walking that far! i wanna cry!!! i dont want to go back.. if this is the troubles i have to go thro.. its so not nice k! can i just didnt go back?! hehe.. i dont want to go thro all these....... plz........ kill me!

back to KTT, means limited access to internet, back to study n so on.. i dont like that kind of life style.. but i think i got no choice.. my mind keep asking the same question, n i cant stop it.. did i made the right decision????

tHe sToRe

suddenly, the store seem so interesting! hehe.. i went to Kangar today, my dad drop me there. even my mom wondered why i want to go to Kangar. hehe.. KL, kinda complicated i guess. but its nice there, as long as i got money wif me.. so, what did i get today?!

• stupidly cute tshirt!!! i love it n i regret didnt buy more than one, coz 'adik-beradik' tshirt tu pun sume cute2..
• pilot refill ink! hehe..

i think thats all.. hehe.. i bought plastic to wrap my books later, then there is veil, and.... nothing else.. hehe.. but i do love that t shirt!!! n i guess i cant go back to Kangar to get another tshirt as my mom will start asking.. hehe..

Canoe..

first question, canoe and kayak, is it the same thing?? hehe.. this evening, i went to UiTM, kayak! hehe.. i love water, but the water in that pond is not so nice.. the color is like tea.. much worse.. my mom had booked for us to gof the house, taking my previous post at home.. hehe.. tomorrow, im going out!!! haho kayak this evening. it had been a while since i join any outdoor activity, so, kinda tired paddling that thing. i gave my phone to my mom before i get into the kayak, so i didnt take any pic.

ok, today i have to cook again.. i think this week i will be the cook aha..

juSt ArRivEd..

actually, i just arrived from KL, n i cant sleep thro the whole damn way to Perlis. now im so so sleepy but i have to wait for subuh prayer 1st, then only i can sleep. i want to transfer all my pic into the Pc, but too lazy to go down n take my handphone..may be after subuh prayer k? haha.. but, a BIG thanks to my companion, a person who is so important and closed to me, who stay up all nite just to accompany me thro phone from 1030p.m. until 430a.m. its so sweet, what u did, sesungguhnya, jasa dan pengorbananmu sangat ku hargai. tak terbalas dengan hanya ucapan terima kasih! ok..let me start the story from the beggining...


lepas je abis exam kat ktt, my aunty call and said she already waiting for me at the main gate. she didnt tell me earlier! so, kelam kabut sikit nak pack barang sebab sepatutnya nak bertolak kul 12 by van kolej. heh, dah alang2 awal, i call my grandpa to pick my stuff up at KTM kepong, then i went to SHOPPING!!! so i bought quite a lot actually.. hehe.. then the day after that, another shopping, next day, some more shopping, so i think i dont need to tell u coz u might get shocekd wif the amount that i had spend in two hours shopping..hehe


now im home!!!! but i need to sleep now..i'll upload photo later k..tata.. nite! even its morning actually! haha.. whateva..


ok, after subuh, i tried to sleep, but guess how long the sleep i manage to get? just around 3 hours coz the house also full of noice..wuaa..my eyes hurt a lot! so, now i cant sleep..so i guess, just upload photo then..

my study table.. semak giler.. exam week, tak sempat a nak kemas..

inilah jadinya bila dh terpengaruh dgn geek2 sedunia..haha

feVer

it has been a while since i got fever, but last two days, i got bad fever! so bad la..then got cold n cough too!! then i still went to all class n lecture. and all the place has aircond, wow, freezing cool.. one hour, i was shaking n trembelling out of cool. huhu.. and everyone else like didnt care about my condition.. huhu.but now, im quite ok, a lil fever, cold, n a lil cough.. hehe.. miss my home........ wah, this week, so hectic wif classes n homeworks..so many. i got a chemistry quiz last wednesday. n it was a disaster.. so hard la..night before the quiz, i studied, while revised the topic, i cried, coz so difficult.. huhu..all my roomate pelik tgok i nangis wktu study.. haha..

i wonder now, DO I DID THE RIGHT DECISION?? coz i think i made the wrong one..huhu...

Collage

i start my a level at KTT!! the second i arrived there, i wanna cry!! n i didnt get the apartment, instead i got the home, off-campus. climbing the hill everyday under the sun!! 2 weeks there, no internet!! now im at my uncle's house, so thats y i can come online..huu..1st nite, i cant even sleep coz the humidity n hot!!! the next day, my uncle bring a fan for me, just for my bed, so, now, its quite ok la.. now i got sunburn coz the walk to collage everyday. hua.. n now i started my class.. God, in english..i already forgot most of the thing i learned in form 5, so now, its so hard to recall everything. a level is just like spm, but in english n advance.. is the hardest subject now. huhu... and almost everyday, my class start at 8 am.. wua...my sleep!!

so tension you know when everyone study like everytime. nothing but study..owh, im not a geek!! i cant do this..wuaa....TENSION..

KoKo

today, at my school, there is cocuricullum day n i was invited there. so i went there..nothing much there, just sunny day. haha.. after that, i went to take photo. im glad this photo came out nicely..haha.. if not...!


then, shopping more! i went and got myself another pair of slack pant, and cheese. hehe.. the slack suit, kinda expensive..huhu.. kopak jugak aku! haha. this time, use my own money.. hehe..


ah, today again, my eyes hurt. becoz go out today.. huhu.. so hot i guess. so hurt...huhu..uhu..tu la tak suka kuar.. its like im crying coz my eyes is teary..hehe//

grandma

yesterday while im using my computer, my neighbour call and tell me that my grandma is dieing. im stunned! i just saw her a couple day ago.

then, my neighbour ask me to get prepare coz they are sending me to my grandma's house. my other siblings wif my parents already went there in the morning, just to visit. on the way there, i felt like i wanna cry but i cant. im not that closed wif this grandma but still, im sad. n quite scared with what happening that time. huhu...

when i arrived, my grandma already been admitted in hospital. i went there at night to visit her. im not so good in dealing wif this situation, afraid! hah. i didnt dare to stay long in the room even she already awake n talk a lil. what i heard, at first, my grandma went into comma, so, they decided to bring them to hospital. waiting for ambulance, she awake. but still, bring her to hospital. doctor suspected Pneumonia. i dont really know..hehe.. but im glad she is stable now. pray for my grandma ok?! heh!

whAt a Day!

yesterday, my dad wake me up at 8 am,hah, to ask me go wif him. actually, i was the one who said i want to follow him to Alor Setar to find some veil. so he wake me up. as i take bath n everything, i thought that we will be home the latest will be at 6. so, i brought nothing as spare. hah.

so, at alor setar, i manage to find two nice veils. i wonder, everything i bought, i will write them in blog as nice, cute, cool and so on! haha. bragging? no, it just for me, the things i bought, its up to my standard, but i dont know others ok? heh. then, we futher our journey to my grandma home, SP. but my dad drove us to bowling centre 1st! yeay! but, guess what, my dad asked me to pay for the games! hah. unbelieveble, we played 6 games each. at the end of game, i felt like my arm will fall off and go wif the ball. hah. its hurt like hell.

then, shopping!! i never went shopping dress n shirt wif my dad. it was great coz he paid! haha.. at last, stupidly cute track bottom, cost him around $60. then, i got a really cute feminine skirt, haha, and a slack, cost him over $100 for that only. hah. i have a nice skirt!! haha

when we arrived at my grandma home, she is sick, fever i guess. so, my dad stay longer there, i have to wait. bored! in the evening, when i check......haha.. leave it to me. coz if i told u, afraid i will be the one who embarassed. haha..

my guess about we will be back at home at 6 pm, hurm, we arrived at home at 10 pm!! so tired. arrived home, my first destination, bathroom. it was so great to get shower and clean myself. haha.

FrEe

yeaha!! at last, i completed my medical checkup. no more visit to hospital in the nearest time. this time, i went there, even the doctor sensed that im nervous. doc, im not just nervous, im damn afraid! haha.. so, the doctor declaire, im normal.. haha.. so, now automaticcaly i made a choice i guess. so im going for JPA schoalrship. wish me luck and pray for me on this track!


KTT, we can choose our roomate. so, there is a girl, same as me, going to do a level there, so sporting n great friend. cant wait to be roomie wif u. we had been chatting i guess for a bout two weeks. kawan satu kepala deh! haha.. at least, i wont be like Miss Lonely there coz u know how hard for me to make a new friend. huhu..

KTT

i check out a website, kinda forum on scholarship. they discuss about my college-to-be. freak me out coz they make it seem so damn err...what a suitable word hah? but its not what im expected. so dissapointed.. like wanna cry that time n change my mind to go to local uni, much much better than that college.. huhu..

im preparing a list of what will i need n the list keep expending coz i keep adding things to bring. haha.. i cant imagine how many things i will have to bring there on that day. n my mom just told me that on that day, my dad has to go to Kuantan. so now i doubt they will send me there on my registration day... waaaa!! i dont wanna go there alone....

soRe tHroAt

huhu..my voice turning into katak's voice..haha! may be this is becoz that day i went outside. huhu, puteri lilin la katakan..haha!


what a boring day today.. so lonely..huhu.. my aim today was to fill in all those forms but i guess that just an aim.ha! so lazy to hold a pen! later tonite i guess. i want to prepare everything by the end of this week..but we'll see the progress..hehe..


i miss my friends..husna n hanisah! cant wait to hang out wif u two. just now, aku baru je bergayut wif hanisah..haha.. so sweet! wait, i will go there ok dear?! :P

SleEpY..

last nite sleep at 3 am..so so sleepy.,..n now having sore throat.. dah macam kata la pulak..haha.. i was planning to sleep for a long time, but husna rang me early in the morning, asking me to come online! she is back!! haha.. my dear is back! love n miss u so much Na! hurm.. so tired now.. tonite, i will sleep earlier! i will! haha

Hols..

wonder..why suddenly i have pimple? i mean the old one had gone, now a new one.. before, i never have pimple... haha.. am i growing up? hahah..im already grown..hehe.. may be im transforming from childish to more mature... but i love being child.. haha! am i??

i need to go to back later, to open a new account for the scholarship. huhu.. malas rasanya.. but have to! i heard so many version, one said that to open an account at that bank, need RM250, other said RM120, some said RM20..huh! what is the exact amount?! haha.. may be i need to go to the bank and find it out myself. when? ah, so lazy to go out. Perlis is a hot state.. lately, i kinda usually go out for the hospital n so on, already had sunburn..huhu..im become darker n darker everyday living here in Perlis. huhu..but soon, i will not live here anymore.. im going to KL, study there..my a-level..huhu..

TB

im free from TB!! hehe... thanks God.. i went to hospital today for the Mantoux test reading.. today, still a bad day coz i am so tired, lack of sleep, tension day..huhu..i almost look like panda..haha..
n i wonder..in a week, i went to hospital 3 times, but why the fear become worse n worser everytime? how i can overcome this fear?? help me...

6 Signs he'll make a good dad by Erika Rasmusson Janes

1. He treats his mother well . What kind of family man will he be? First look at his relationship with his mom. Does he respect her? Laugh with her easily? Enjoy visiting her? Help out with chores or errands? “If the answer is yes, all of this means she did a good job raising him, he naturally likes women, and will like the mom you will become,” says Wendy Allen, Ph.D., a psychotherapist specializing in couples and marriage therapy in Santa Barbara, CA. In fact, respect in general — to other family members, to kids, and to you — should be at the top of the “what to look for” list.

2. He’s selfless. What’s the number one thing you learn when you become a parent? You never come first anymore! So if you’re with a guy who thinks he’s the center of the universe, beware. For Jackie Baker, a Valdosta, GA, mother of one, it was easy to see she wasn’t dating an egomaniac when she found out that he’d spent much of his time caring for his 17-years-younger sister. “One of his major responsibilities was to take care of her in the afternoon when he came home from school,” she says. “He didn’t really go on dates or get to hang out with his friends. I thought, any teenage boy who is willing to give up his time for his sister is a great man. Even to this day he helps out with his sister’s homework whenever he can. I knew when I saw him taking such an interest in his family that he was going to be a wonderful father.”

3. He’s not easily grossed out. Surprise! Kids are messy. There are dirty diapers, vomit—and dirty diapers and vomit happening at the same time. Being a parent means getting comfortable with the eewwww factor. Good fathers are the ones “who jump in to clean up a gross mess and help out when someone else isn’t feeling well,” says Dianne Couris, an author and parenting coach in Oldsmar, FL, and president of Family Choices & Solutions, Inc. Christine Louise Hohlbaum, a mother of two, found this out years ago while on a tumultuous, three-hour ferry boat ride around the Greek Islands. Hohlbaum got seasick five times. “Each time, my then-boyfriend would take my barf bag to the front of the boat to retrieve another one,” she says. “As we pulled into the dock, I knew this man would make a great father. Childbirth and parenting would be a snap for a guy who can carry puke across the Mediterranean without blinking an eye.”

4. He’s a great uncle. “Nephews and nieces are the stepping stones to your own kids,” says Allen. “Does he call them on their birthdays? Does he make dates where he actually has to show up and take them to the movies or an amusement park?” Varina Caton, a Wilmington, DE, mother of two, witnessed such dedicated affection with her future husband and his nieces and nephews. “He would have his nieces and nephews fly out to stay with us,” she says. “He has always made a point of staying in contact with them. He sent some of them to summer camp because their Mom was unable to come up with the money. He has mentored them as they have matured, introducing money management (for obvious reasons!), job skills, people skills and most importantly setting goals. Because of his involvement with his sibling’s offspring I knew he would make a great Dad, and he has!”

5. He doesn’t mind taking direction from his partner. “If a man resents being told what to do, then working with him on his children’s schedule and responsibilities could get tense,” Couris says. “Running a family schedule is usually [the mother’s role] and the father typically needs direction.” How can you tell if he’ll respond well to family life? Notice how he takes to your suggestions (“I think you should pack more than one pair of underwear for our week at the beach”) and how he reacts to your plans (“Don’t forget: Thursday is my uncle’s 73rd birthday and we’re all going to dinner.”) If you get a positive reaction, you’re onto something!

6. He likes ketchup. And he understands the importance of blowing the paper cover off of a straw and seeing if it can reach across the table. In other words, he has a playful sense of fun, and doesn’t take himself too seriously. Those could be the most telling sign of all. You’ve got to have a sense of humor to get through life with kids.

Now, here are a couple of signs maybe he’s not destined to be the world’s best dad:

1. He can’t go with the flow. A good dad needs to be flexible, easy-going and not easily flustered. Having a kid means that dinners will get canceled, and vacations will be marred by bouts of the flu. If he’s the type who sweats the small stuff and can’t easily adapt to change, he may be in for a tough time as a dad. “I dated one guy who planned every weekend as if it was a military operation, and he totally blew a gasket if there was any fluctuation from his plans,” recalls Elizabeth Bach of Westfield, NJ. “He wasn’t so into the idea of having kids anyway, and I thought that was a good thing—he’d probably be one uptight, inflexible dad!”

2. He doesn’t pitch in around the house. “Any man who considers himself above anything… is going to have trouble serving his or her majesty: The baby,” Allen says.

i found it on MSN, cute! yesterday, i was damn sad, but today, im damn happy!! yeay me!! more info? its been hide..hahaha.. but thanks God, for make my day bright again. n now wif two sides to write, so confusing, but i glad i have two sides.. :P

Funeral??

no one died okay? just me being sad. after 3 days being sad n trying to regain myself esteem, here i am, posting a new post on blogger. So, the scholarship.......no need to tell, but the ending is not good, but i already get over it. just now, i have to make decision, wise one.

dentistry, pharmacy, or chemistry?!!?

so confuse to decide! owh..help me!!! i really need others thought and opinion..

pimple

1st time i have cute little pimple!!! Hanisah, now i know what is pimple..kinda weird but its small, nobody can really see it.. haha! but whateva it is, i have pimple!!! hahahah. i dont know why im so happy coz usually girls will upset n worried over a pimple.. am i normal or what??!!

stay-at home mother's work worth $138095 a year, believe it?

NEW YORK (Reuters) - If the typical stay-at-home mother in the United States were paid for her work as a housekeeper, cook and psychologist among other roles, she would earn $138,095 a year, according to research released on Wednesday.

This reflected a 3 percent raise from last year's $134,121, according to Salary.com Inc, Waltham, Massachusetts-based compensation experts.

The 10 jobs listed as comprising a mother's work were housekeeper, cook, day care center teacher, laundry machine operator, van driver, facilities manager, janitor, computer operator, chief executive officer and psychologist, it said.

The typical mother puts in a 92-hour work week, it said, working 40 hours at base pay and 52 hours overtime.

A mother who holds full-time job outside the home would earn an additional $85,939 for the work she does at home, Salary.com.

Last year she would have earned $85,876 for her at-home work, it said.

wow! i never know what i am doing now at home worth that much. even i am not a mom yet, but i still have to keep the house - housekeeper, cook - cook, take care of my sis- day care centre teacher, do the laundry - laundry machine operator, watch telly - supervisor, and so much more.. hahah!! thanks Mummy for doing all those works all these time. so, thats meaning fully housewife isnt a low-class job!!

KL...

Last wednesday, i went to KL and i stayed at my grandma home. At first, it was damn bored coz all my plans went wrong. i cant go to Sepang coz my aunty said something came up. So, i stucked at my grandma home doing nothing, wif no internet. Then, my best friend had to work all days in that week. God, i waste my time and money by going to KL.

But then, my best friend takes a day off, on Monday. i was so HAPPY!! i met her at STAR Bandaraya. We both wore pink dress! Cute huh? Our first place was SOGO coz i want to look for a handbag. But there, we just look a while before we stop at MAC booth to look out for foundation. After that, we just went out to Pertama Complex, surveying handphone.

Then, we walk to the nearest station n went to KLCC. There, we went for PIZZA HUT first coz we were hungry. After that, we went around KLCC look for handbag n foundation plus a book. After our hands had changed into various colors of foundation, we went to Ampang Mall, as a subsequence to find the book. After that, we had a short stop at KL sentral to do our prayer then head off to MidVal. Believe me, by that time, our legs hurt but since the mission not accomplished yet, we still in the search. MidVal is damn big! Lastly we found a cute pink handbag at Girl and no hesitate, I bought that.

Then we decided to call it a day. Took a comuter on different tickets, but in the comuter, we decide to go to my grandma home. Eventhough her ticket is just until Bank Negara, we decide to go off recond and stop at my station. Luckly the manual gate was open, easy for us to sneak out. We spend the evening chatting at my grandma home before we both went back to the station. She went back to her home and I went to Shah Alam, to my mum and sleep at Concorde!

Honey, that’s a wonderful day even Im tired at the end of that day. We enjoy each other, right? Wish we can hang out again. I love to hang out wif my best friends, coz I can hold their hand with no worry! Haha.

How much i spend that day? i dont want been called a nerd by keeping my spend on record so i just conclude my spend that day as A LOT!!

eat these and dont eat that

THE ENEMIES LIST
Soda, fruit juice, and sports drinks Not only are they sugary, they're acidic, and that creates a perfect home for the bacteria that cause cavities and gum disease -- especially if you tend to sip on one or another of these drinks all day (who, us?). Acid-neutralizing saliva just can't keep up. The realistic fix Nobody's saying go cold turkey but for all-day swigging, choose water. Reserve these pick-me-ups for once-a-day use. And buy some straws -- sipping through them (try this trick) shrinks teeth-exposure time.

Sticky stuff We're not just talking gooey caramels or fruit rollups. Bread, crackers, chips, sweet rolls, and other refined carbohydrates are nearly as likely to cling to teeth as a Tootsie Roll -- and they hang on for at least 20 minutes. Not good.The realistic fix. Try to say no to sticky sweets and carbs when you can't brush afterward. Alternatively, slosh some water around in your mouth or chew a stick of sugarless gum that's sweetened with xylitol. The gum helps remove sticky food particles from your teeth, and xylitol curbs cavity causers and increases healthy saliva.

YOUR SMILE'S BEST FRIENDS

Cheese, please. Eating a bit of cheddar (or whatever) at the end of a meal helps protect teeth. It stimulates the production of cleansing saliva, plus the calcium in cheese helps harden teeth.

Crunchy things Crisp apples, celery and carrots are nature's little toothbrush alternatives. Not only do they help rid your mouth of food particles but their rough, fibrous texture actually scrubs away as you chew, slightly brightening your smile.

Have a cupp a Drinking tea after eating can help destroy the germs that cause cavities, gum disease, and phewy breath. That goes for both green and black teas.

Shiitake mushrooms These delicate, delicious flavor-boosters contain lenitan, a plant substance that's anything but a lightweight: It fights both tooth plaque and the bacteria that live in it.

i found it on Yahoo. nice huh? apply it! ceh, im advising like im a dentist or something. may be lastly i got the spirit of dentistry after the interview!

interview

It was two busy days.

2 April

I went to school, meeting the counselor to ask about interview ethical. Met a lot of my teachers! Making me awkward and wanna leave as soon as possible!! Rushing for town, cook at home and what not. Then I had to study, because everybody told me there will be a test. Believe me, I read all those things on dentistry, including the teeth structure!! So bored coz it just full of info that had to be memorized. Busy day! And tired one too!

3 April

Today is a big day! I wake up so early, take bath and get dresses. Then, I went to Poli. I was damn nervous. I had to wait in a room, the room already almost full so I have no choice but to sit in the middle of boys. Then, I had to sit for personality test. Damn it, 200 questions in 30 minutes?! I just blacken the answer quickly. I read 10 questions at once and answer the 10 answers without looking back at the questions! Ha-ha. Even I didn’t know what I had answered. Then, again, I had to wait in the room. This time, I was really nervous, like my heart want to pop out! Waiting, I tried to scribble some sentences for the debate. Then, when my name and three others been call, I want to run away from there! Damn scared. Then, I had a boy partner, for the debate. ‘Students eat too much junk food these days’ the topic and I have to disagree wif that! How the hell I want to disagree when the topic is a fact! Then, we just had given 5 minutes to come out with the point! At that time, nothing come across in my mind! The interviewers are a man and a woman. When the 1st and 2nd is talking, the woman didn’t look up, she busying checking our file. But suddenly when I was talking, she stops doing what she doing and listen to me. God, she made me more nervous. I don’t know what I was saying. Then, when I run out of idea, I just said, thank you! I had no idea!! Ha-ha. Then, when the 4th person talking, I didn’t really listen what she was saying, what her points coz I thought that’s it, after her, its done. But suddenly the man asks if anyone from my team want to add something. My partner put up his hand while I just mumbling alone coz I don’t know what to say else. But the man said, “ Yes no. 2, want to add something?”. I didn’t prepare anything! Then I ask him, “ You want me to rebut her points?”, he said, “ Up to you, the floor is yours!” then the woman laugh lightly. In my mind ‘ what the hell I’m going to say?”. Then again, I was saying nothing, I don’t know what came out off my mouth. These times, the woman listens to me intently. She even added, “ I don’t think KFC is selling junk food,” and then I reply something and the man asks something, and I said something! Is it a horrible one? I wanna cry!!

pHone call..

yesterday, i got to call my best friend!! she had to go to PLKN at Sarawak.. no handphone make me alone here, cannot text message or call her..how i missed her. yesterday, we only got a chance to chat around 10 minutes coz she have a duty what so ever..at least i talk to her!!it was wonderful coz i missed her so much. she now become a zebra!!haha.. only afta a week, she got tanned all over her fair skin. Husna, I missed and love ya! its so sad when i have to end up our conversation.. alomost cry but.........

..My yesterday, tomorrow and today..

Yesterday
I was thinking of my future
Looking for the best side
And expecting the worse of all
With the faith of others
But also my own doubts
Scare with the freedom
Happy with the sorrow
Then I realize
How weird my life that day
And how terrific my day is

Today
Early of the starting
I’m standing without aim
Coz I want to share
But I just got to stare
At the blur future
Looking in my hand
And stood there with crystallize water
Sad with the fantasy
Happy with the realistic
Then I know
How lucky my life that day
And how bad my day is

Tomorrow
I will struggle to accept the past
Here in future
Not sure am I sad
Nor happy
Coz I had make my life worse
And make my future bright
Satisfied with the outcome
Don’t want the outcome too
Then someone told me
How perfect my life is

I look blindly forward
Now I’m not sure
Did I want these yesterday, today nor tomorrow?
Many others wish they can trade my life with theirs
But I still don’t know
Am I lucky?
Or my life is wonderful
But I didn’t see the bright side of my life?

rEsult

rEsulT coMinG....afraid? may be.. im not ready to see it yet!!

daily news on CNN!!

staying at home everyday, from 6 a.m. this morning, till 6 a.m. the next morning, people alwayz said its so boring and they will said that they missed school so much. but for me, im not sure if i missed school. those sweet little class, wif the teachers come, teach, n go. i donnow, but for sure, im not ready to step into another education level. i dont want to go to university!!! i know everyone will think im wierd n im sure my parents will not agree wif me. but i just dont want to left this shell yet...can i?i dont like things changing, i love the way it is now. but i know that world is all about changing all the time, every single second. BUT, my mind still cant get used wif the university idea..

Top 10 romantic getaways

1. Islands of Hawaii
2. Paris
3. Caribbean
4. Venice
5. Tahiti
6. Greece
7. Jamaica
8. San Francisco
9. Monterey Peninsula
10. New York City

ehm, where is Malaysia?! Haha..

Top 20 bloom sprouting (flower!)

the ranking of top 20 in most famous flower and most attractive! (Sexy)

1. Roses (loVe)

2. Orchid ( a belle)

3. Iris ( My compliments )

4. Calla Lily ( Purity )

5. Sunflower ( pure thought)

6. Amaryllis ( splendid beauty )

7. Tulip ( Declaration of love )

8. Carnation ( Pride and beauty )

9. Hydrangea ( Heartlfelt )

10. Birl of Paradise ( Joyfulness )

11. Chrysanthemum ( Fidelity )

12. Daffodil ( Chivalry )

13. Tiger Lilly ( I dare you to love me )

14. Anthurium ( Hospitality )

15. Peony (Bashful )

16. Lilac ( Youthful innocence )

17. Gerbera Daisy

18. Anemone ( Anticipation )

19. Aster ( Patience )

20. Stargazer Lily

FamILy gAthEring..

30 December 2006
I went to Port Dickson with my uncle and arrive at our.. im not sure is it a hotel or a resort.. at 12 noon. we settled down and then i met my family, uhu dad and mom after almost 2 weeks. then we just rest at our room and i watch everybody else eat their lunch.. i am FASTING!! at 530 pm, we got a telematch and its was an enjoyful game which make all family members enjoy each other.. there, 6 families gather for that holiday trip. I didnt win any game but my mother and my brother did. then, its time to eat!! 830 pm, we had a barbecue together.. huhu, uncle Daanish ate a lot!! haha..

31 December 2006
early in da morning, i had to wake up and take bath. we went for AidilAdha solat at the nearest mosque. then, my family went to my dad's friend's house. after that, we went to my auntie's sister's home at Kuala Pilah and have kind of party there. at 400 pm, we went back to Port Dickson. we then go to seaside.

1 January 2007
We went to A Famosa Water Theme Park. it was great but at the end of the day, i catch a cold!! waa.. then we went back to KL. have a sleep there at my aunt home.

dRiVinG

yesterday, my aunt start teaching me driving. wow, first time on wheel, the feeling was amazing. i felt i have the power coz im the one who controling it. then, i felt like i just controling a toy car coz i didnt feel real, its just like dreaming. Oh God, if my dad know, he will be mad at me.. and today i didnt get the chance to drive again coz we went out to Jusco and its already late when we arrived at home..huhu.. i can drive now!! illegally.. haha

Away

Im at kl.. back to kl.. and God, Husna is having bad fever and im so worry. is she going to be fine? Lord, plz give Husna great health so we can continue our 'pengabdian' towards You!

4tH dAys

prepare to go home! :)

3Rd dAy

pack my stuffs and prepare to go to Cameron! huhu, its so cold up there! during day, its 17 degree centigrade. by night, its so so cold!!! i went to find pink roses!! so cute!

2nd Days

still in Concorde but i went to my Opah's house and i am so happy, i get a chance to watch tv!! wakaka...

1st dayZ

I arrived at Concorde Hotel at 5 p.m. and the hotel is quite cool. we staying at junior suite but still crowded with 10 of us! nothing special today coz i was so bored. there is no lap top neither do internet! the room was so chilling. huhu!

I mIsS YoU!

I miss you,
I miss you're smile,
And I still shed a tear
Every once in a while

And even though it's different now
You're still here somehow,
My heart won't let you go,
And I need you to know,

I miss you,
Shalalalala,
I miss you

Hannah Montana

MerDeka!

At last! i donnow how to describe my feeling rite now coz its quite confuse and complicated! Huhu..i dont have much time to write here now coz i have to prepare for the trip to Penang in 30 minutes time. Busy? its okay if its do nothing with facts and informations!! im tired of stuffing all that in my head.. not really..

mY hOliDay..

lets me put out my plan for this SPM holiday, 6 months!! which starts 7 december 2006, my last paper!

7 - 8 December 2006

penang! here i come! im going to penang with my classmate, the coolest class in the universe,
5 Sumaiyah 2006

10 - 13 December 2006

huhu, i really missed water!! my favorite place to be.. playing with water with my family members.. all of them.. ehm.. 8 of them!!

13-15 December 2006
yo! im on top of the world!! wif my family too, i will go to cameron highland!!

16 December 2006

my aunt will held a wedding ceremony and i have to attend!

17 December 2006

at last, i arrived at my aunt home, nilai! just next to KLIA!! supposely i go there by airplane but since my parents love me so much and will bring me there, so i just throw away my airplane ticket on 14th December that i had bought!

after that, thats a lot more plan to be but i tell u later when i have been there!!

loVe areNt oNe..

Courtly love in general modern use means an unconsummated relationship, courtly love in medieval Europe was in fact often adulterous. Eroticism is an aesthetic focused on sexual desire, especially the feelings of anticipation of sexual activity. It is not only the state of arousal and anticipation, but also the attempt through whatever means of representation to incite those feelings

Platonic love in its modern popular sense is an affectionate relationship into which the sexual element does not enter, especially in cases where one might easily assume otherwise. A simple example of platonic relationships is a deep, non-sexual friendship between two heterosexual people of the opposite sexes

Familial love is a type affinity or natural affection felt between members of a group bound by common ancestry or blood ties. The cultural ideal of familial love is one that is committed, unconditional, selfless, emotionally full, and reciprocally returned by the other.

Puppy love is an informal term for feelings of love between young people, especially during adolescence, so-called for its resemblance to the affection that may be felt towards a puppy dog. In general, puppy love refers to an incomplete, immature, or 'false' love compared to 'true' love.

True love is a popularly held concept of loving another lover or potential lover without restraint and without restriction. true love is described as love without condition, motive or attachment, loving someone just because they are themselves, not because of their appearance, actions, or other superficial factors. Such shallow reasons for affection, those that only appear on the surface, are often considered infatuation or puppy love, which are less profound and meaningful than true love.

Romantic love is a form of love that is often regarded as different from mere needs driven by sexual desire, or lust. Romantic love generally involves a mix of emotional and sexual desire, as opposed to Platonic love. There is often, initially, more emphasis on the emotions than on physical pleasure

It is important to note that the exact definition and nature of true love is highly subjective. Throughout history, true love has been debated over by philosophers, writers and scholars such as Shakespeare and Plato. Modern day intellectuals also have widely differing ideas of true love.

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when you want to give a rose to someone special, did you know what each roses means? believe it!

... red - love ...
... pink - grace, gentle feeling of love ...
... dark pink - gratitude ...
... light pink - admiration, sympathy ...
... white - innocence, purity, secrecy, friendship, reverence and humility ...
... yellow - its a symbol of dying love or platonic love - in German, it's jealousy, infidelity ...
... yellow with red tips - friendship, falling in love ...
... orange - passion ...
... burgundy - beauty ...
... blue - mystery ...
... green - calm ...
... black - slavish devotion ( as a true, black rose is impossible to produce) ...
... purple - protection ( paternal/maternal love ) ...

Love like u never hurt

are rejection same with brake up? i am wondering is it the same coz if someone said she and he had broke up, automaticly other people will say her/his love had been rejected. is it? as long as i know, rejection and brake up is a different way of ending relationship. brake up is when the man and the woman cannot tolerate with each other in any way, their end their relationship with their love still alive but rejection is when u didnt want he/she anymore coz u have someone else, u hate he/she or u didnt love him/her, not yet. and rejection is when u broke up with someone when u have another person to replace him/her. thats the only case where brake up and rejection is conected. love in brake up but hatred in rejection. so, anybody have any idea of it? but still, i believe, brake up and rejection is nothing same!

A child's definition of love: Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other. Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redbird. When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you. You can break love, but it won't die

STUPID!!

who is that guy?! go to hell with his words. i never insulted anybody, nor their family but why he keep insulting me? and my father too?! all the 'H' in my life, i need all of u! i cant stand with this man keep doing this to me. what have i done that make me deserve this?! i never even call anybody stupid but he insulted me like i am a girl with no PRIDE!! Oh Allah, he didnt deserve ur world, ur earth and ur land coz he never learn! i have to stand his insults not only this time but so many times! he is not my responsible, why he kept bugging me? he is not my responsible, not even my dakwah's responsible!

ok, may be the words i had write was my angry. but if that man stand in front of me, i will slap him! he is nothing to say those words towards me and my family! I will never reply that man again, and u will never get my forgiveness, never!!

Busy

Sorry so busy. I have a lot things to do and to think. So, until then, tara!