doNNow

i donnow actually what to write coz too many things in my mind... so, im not sure what i suppose to tell people, what i should just keep to myself. for sure, i keep most of it in my mind, and in my beloved secret box.. hehehe.. one month to go to AS LEVEL EXAM.... trying my best to be the best....... love you all!

public transport disasterS

last friday, it was a very damn tiring day. i was planning to go to sunway pyramid wif this fren one week ago, but suddenly, i cannot contact that person on that day. so i decide, fine, i go alone. when im about to go on the bus, Rafika said she aso going to sunway!! so, i just go wif her la, since she aso was going alone.

arrived at KTM nilai, we missed the train coz have to walk from the bus, then Q for the ticket. oklah, finally, at 1245, we got into the train.... stopped at KL sentral to pray. then leave my bag there, take ktm to subang jaya. our train late by 2 minutes.. so far, the journey is considered nice.

arrived at KTM subang jaya, we saw this daif looking bus (sorry ye org subang), i donnow what to take, since Rafika aedy did 'research' for that day journey. so, we have to walk about 4 minutes to find the bus stop of RapidKL. hop on the bus, we start our journey by bus... ok, ok, ok, suddenly, the driver sais that this bus cannot go to sunway pyramid n he 'halau' all the passenger out. when i was out of the bus, then only i saw one of the tyres was flat... now, we r in the middle of nowhere. we totally donnow what to do. luckly there was this uncle who wif us and bring us to the nearest bus stop... ok, waiting for another RapidKL nervously, wif my stomach singing a hungry song. of coz, its almost 4 by that tyme! ok, there is the bus. we hop on, the bus move, for like 2 minutes, then stopped. the driver went down and sembang wif other bus drivers there. me n Rafika so bengang that tyme.. we wait for 5 minutes, nothing happen. so we went down, and try to tahan taxi. n its starting to rain!!! shit!

after 3 failed attemp, we got a taxi. cost us 7 ringgit for the taxi!!! ok, at last we arrived at the sunway pyramid! first stop, eat!! then wonder around trying to find a birthday present for my friends. all of the things there, mostly a 3-digit ringgit.... so, NO!!

after a really tiring day, and my foot started to feel the pain, i was wearing heels, of coz. we went out, ask the guard where the bus to KL, he pointed the place. we walked far....... ok, wait there wif others... one bus came, we asked the driver, the driver said we have to wait across the road.. its a highway, how?!?! then we walk like one kilometer running for the bus, when we arrived at the place where lots of people aso waiting, the bus just closed the door right in front of us! we ran here for u!! damn!!!! wait for like 10 more minutes, the bus came. the RapidKL packed like sardin, i have to squeeze in...hurm.. enought about bus n the terrible journey on it..

arrived at klsentral, really damn tired, ready to go back, suddenly there is this announcement.. all KTM had broke down, we cant estimated what tyme it will be back operating and u r suggest to find alternative transport - something like that... what?!!! i need to go to Kepong, and Rafika wanna go back to collage.... there was lots of people stuck at klsentral.... so, no other choice, i called my aunty, asking her how to go back to Kepong. rafika, no choice but to follow me. so my aunty said she will come and pick me up at klsentral. thanks God!!! if not i donnow what happen to me....

its was so tiring day, bad luck day... by the tyme we finally arrived at kepong, its almost 12...since we go to my uncle kedai to eat first... hurm.. collapsed!

tiReD

its feel like a long week, a tiring routine, and a bored one.. keep on living the same life, STUDY! i dont know that life as a collage student can be so limited like this.. plus i heard next week gonna have a monthly test for all subject. hurm, im sick of test n exam already. but got another 8 more months, 3 internal exams and 2 international exams.. huhu... and lots of test in between i guess..

i got my durian!!! akhirnya, apa yg diidam-idamkan dpt jua... wlupun tak puas sbnrnya.. nak lagik!!!

esok, going back!! so excited loh, got to go out from KTT for a while. so tension la being here 24-7. huhu... wanna enjoy my weekend to the fullest! i'll update later k.

busY

the week of busy!!! apakah?! sgt busy la this week, even agak lepak sbnrnya...

on sunday, i help mpp at DU to set up the dwan for our senior coming back. even the lecturer who in charge at the DU thought im one of the MPP. huh?!! noo!!! but nice la, spend tyme wif my frensss

then start class.. n classes.. some more classes, and more... hahaha.. but our bio lecturer had resign to continue her study, now we have no bio lecturer.. so, we r left behind da.. later have to study by myself la. waa.... i wanna go home!!!!!

im too tired aedy.. tomorrow got class starting at 8.... wish can go back this weekend la..

Shenton, we meet next week k!!! cant wait loh.

heart broken

who are you to judge that?? im far from heart broken. u didnt even know me. so, stay away!

i wish one thing, i wish life will now turn the way that i want. please my Lord, please....

i wanna go home!! i planned to go this weekend, then chuwat said she is busy this weekend, so we will go next weekend, guess what, next weekend my opah will not be home.. so i hv to go next next weekend... waaaaa!!!!!!!!

i donnow what should i do now......

mummy.......

piNk reBEL!

actually, i had made a really long list of my pink things. loooooooong one and it took me forever to really list down all my pink things, and thanks to blogger who saved everything every minutes, and some mistake, i lost the list! so, i wont do it again coz its not an easy task.. hehehe..
plus, its a good thing, if u guys wanna know how crazy i am over pink stuff, meet myself personally, and then u'll know. hehe...

being a parent or parents never been easy. solute to my mom and dad who been doing that perfectly over 20 years now. this week, as my parents arent home, i have to take care of my sisters and bro, and trust me, its not easy at all. so damn hard and i cant believe my parents manage all thier sons and daughters all these while. thanks mom and dad! love u always!!

to daddy, Happy birthday dad! i love you so much, and hope Allah will bless you always. wish u a very happy life and may all your dreams and hopes come true! thanks dad!

dream bOY?

yesterday, a guy ask me, just as a friend, apakah ciri2 lelaki idaman.. wow, only that tyme i realize, i cant answer that. yeah, may be i can answer that question if Husna and Hanisah ask me, but if other, i cant! just i dont wanna freak people out.. kekeke.. lyke its so damn freaky.. it just i dont think i should answer it to some strangers... i mean friends, but who didnt really know me. coz if they do really know me, u will get the answer without me telling u.

quite sad... im home but my parents arent... they went outstation for the whole week, until i went back to collage.. whats the point im being home?!? sob..sob.. borink... i want my mummie... kekek.. not until that stage lah.. styll ok, coz i had spend last week wif them. just so bored now staying home alone, while all my sis n bros go to school and work... help me!

phYsics nOte..

at last, i manage to finish doing my physics note.. huhu.. so lazy la... another week and i will be back to KTT.. hurm.. i dont want to! can i go somewhere else? i wish i can..

while my parents having a hols to, we went 1) to bowling centre at Jitra. its an okay trip, plus the bowling centre must be thankful becoz i came, i clean their longkang lots of tyme. haha. and one thing, the shoe there stink! so badly.. huhu, i thought its a new place, how come? 2) dine outside.. donnow why but my dad had bring us for lunch outside twice now. 1st day we went to Pokok Ciku. damn, the food there very nice! trust me. 2nd day, we went so far to serdang to my aunty place just to have our lunch there.. hehe. but the similirity between that two days, i always finish eating the last. i donnow why now, but i always finish last, here or at collage, always.. hehe

KYLE XY continue!! i love it..

heaVen!

im home... glad to be home, the only place where true love is. not everything at home is pleasant, but the love complement it, make it perfect!

the trip home although wasnt so pleasant. i cant sleep again throught the journey! that terrible bus! i donnow what the hell i paid 33 ringgit for! its horrible, when it will be better? i dont like looking at sweet memories, but the only trip that is so damn nice is that nyte.... hurm...ah! go away sadness!

KTT, im tired to be at that land, the land of plastic. im confused all the tyme im there. its so weird when i have to wonder around searching for answer, searching for what did i do wrong coz usually, my faulty will haunted me, but why i cant see this tyme, even when the world crush on me? may be becoz i did nothing, or may be its fate, or most probably my pay for my sins in past. hurm... why everybody is faking?! weird..

physics! thats the only book i open since im home. but oklah, better than i didnt open any at all. later may be chemy!

sleEp..

Something horrible happen yesterday, n i even cant believe, the impact, i cant sleep. the thing happen is out of sudden n i was awake all nite to think, i tried to figure out what did i do wrong but styll, i cant manage to find it coz i didnt do it...so, i didnt sleep at all last nite n now here i am still awake..but feel so blurry now... otak pun dh tak berapa betul....kejap lagi nak kena tido nih....

today got exam briefing which mostly is the 'warning' from en razib since the result of As n A level is worse this tyme... i aso quite shock n scared when i heard, 20+ people cant fly coz didnt have enought cut-off point.. then the one-year student As result, lots of them have to repeat paper. plus, he is so mad coz his students wear jeans n tshirt to classes...then lots of the students wrote at friendster about how KTT is bad la, KTT is not nice n so on....i wonder how he find out that one.... hehehe...

plus, my midsem exam is next week..one day more to prepare myself.. waa..sooooo many thing have to memorise, remember and understand..n i hope this midsem result will be better than the final exam before, InsyaAllah.. i need to be better!!

Ya Allah, plz give me courage and strength to continue my journey here despite the obstacles and fitnah (dear reader, if u really understand what fitnah mean k! dont go salah faham...) being put on me, and plz give me an excellent memory, and give me success throught my life. i hope the ujian U give to me will give me strength and prepare me for another bright day, InsyaAllah.... without U, i will collapse anytime and lose my way...

exam!!

another exam is coming n now after 3 months, im losing my perspective... huhu... now too lazy to study, sad~ how am i gonna perform in this exam.. pluz, it will include almost all the syllabus of AS Level exam!! waaa.. i got less that one week, wif no study week, n the lazy feeling too study! plz, help me!!!!

my best friend came to KTT and spend a day wif me!!! wa, so happy.. she came, we share a lot of story, n so many things.... i feel a lil cheer up coz i can tell all my feeling to her, coz telling to someone who doesnt care really annoying -but trust me, that person didnt care at all- hurm, thanks Honey!!! we went uphill, even during rain. play the rain together ma.. hehe. suddenly the hill got so many air terjun, since its raining... until almost mgrb, we went back to collage.. then that nite we chat until 3 am! lots of catch up to do.. hehe.. the best part, both of us got cold -main sgt hujan!- hahaha. i aso brought her to me ****a* and ****a*. then a tour around the KTT, but the place she ask to see twice is Student representative board.. why?~ should ask her herself la!

Lab

heh..new semester, suddenly got a lot of experiment.. but this morning, the most unforgotten. we were doing chemistry experiment. one of the test involve warming the substance, damn it produce ammonia gas.. yeah it turn the red litmus paper to blue, but i believe it also turn myself to blue. the smeel is so horrible, causing me to go dizzy, then got headache!!! after that, the whole tyme in the lab, i was in a bad mood since my head is killing me.. hurm... Amonnia gas!

then when i returned to my room, the first thing i do is do my prayer, that take a bath! wif a hope it will reduce my headache..after the bath, i feel so cool... i only can pray that im not gonna get fever, thanks God i didnt! then when my head is getting better, ****a* sms me n ask me to go n have dinner wif her..huhu, as a friend, i said sure..luckly by the tyme i went down to meet her, i had recovered fully.. Thanks Allah!

im tired, coz today i have to do lots of homework as other can do it this weekend..bio, chemy, english, math...

girlfriends....

now, im living my life g among girlfriends... eh, im a straight person k! just making friends.. n i got two great new friends actually..

*****a*
she is a nice girl, cute also.. really sweet, so very sweet. the nice thing is, im sharing the same feeling wif her, i mean our probs r kinda the same, so, we r in the same boat. she is a good listener, and good friend aso. i can cry in front of her, and share tear wif her..

****a*
she aso a nice girl, very talkative one! we can spend whole day n she will never run out of story, of coz its aso becoz im also talkative, i guess.. my friend said i look alike like ****a* but i donnow..dont think so... she is a great company, really enjoy myself n her when we go out. she is really nice, she is encouraging me to forget my probs n so on...plus we can chat until 1 am in the morning, the distance between the place im standing n she is, like 5 metres (pretty weird ryte?), until one of us is sleepy..never did that one before wif other friend, so its kinda weird and sweet.

thanks to both k! i really2 love u pals! they r really nice friends, trust me!

allowance..

the allowance for the new sem had been in!! 2500, extra 80 dollar per month. quite ok i guess..huhu..
i went out wif farah n nad..
got a new bag, cost me 90 dollars- the most expensive bag i ever get, but its a standard price i guess for the size of bag, and after all, i bought the brand, not the bag i guess...
then two pair of shoes, cute!
i want to go home.....

back!!

im back at this land.. what am i doing here? i donnow.. after physics lecture just now, my head like wanna blow off and suddenly im out of my mood. coz of that, here i am, in front of the comp, too lazy too study anything ryte now! hurm.. damn!

okay..

im doing good actually. that day, may be tgh emo lebey kot..haha..
but after all, im okay..

n aku beraya kat cameron seyh.tak ke pelik? budak2 zaman sekarang! wakakaka..
best gak beraya kat cameron..i got my strawberry!!! mcm kanak-kanak ribena dah bila dpt strawberry, plus whipped cream! even the smell of strawberry is nice, i love it!
then i got my tomatoes. i donnow but thanks to Hami, now i love tomatoes, i even can eat it raw. before this, i cant stand tomatoes..how wonderful! and cameron is quite cool, even not as cool as before.. each tyme i went there, its getting warmer and warmer..

2 days to go before i have to go back to collage. im surprise, coz i missed jogging, studying, and of coz, i want to go to more SYS's class coz my physics lecture, all these 3 weeks, only got one class. im getting worry....

tomorrow im going out to kangar.. cant wait!

back..

im going back to kl.. reluctantly.. my holiday end next week, but since all of my family are going, i have no choice... sad what.. have to be back in that kind of world.. huhu.. im so stress out.. wif study, wif life, wif friends, wif everything. im willing to kill people.. hurm.. nak kena pack barang balik.. baru dua malam seyh aku tidur dekat rumah.. sedey je...huhu.. i have to undergo this study things for about 12 more months n i only went thro this for about 4 months...huhu..

i really want to pull myself away..i cant do it anymore.... i dont know how im gonna get 4 A in AS n A2, when all my internal exams, i suck really bad at it. ALONE!!

Happy Raya

to all my friends, happy raya..this moment, i take this opportunity to say im so sorry for anything i did that hurt any of u. im so sorry. n love u all..

n im sorry if i didnt reply any of ur sms n call, my handphone is broken, so im living wif no handphone..its hard, but i had been thro 2 week without it, so, its okay.. ryte now, i got another big thing to face.. pray that i manage to stand still even after going thro this hardship... God, help me...

FastiNg

hurm... now it had already been more than a week of fasting... quite tired.. n this is the 1st time im undergo ramadhan away from my mummy n daddy... hurm... sgt sedey.. tp nk wat mcm mana kan... huhu.. suddenly rasa mcm dh guna bnyk sgt a duit jpa.. nk wat mcm mana ye.. huhu.. i dont know..

cant wait to go home!!!!!!

hOme

going home tomorrow... n just now someone told me terminal one ( the place i will be arriving at) are 10 minutes walk from ktm seremban.. now i wonder how the hell im bringing all thos stuff alone, walking that far! i wanna cry!!! i dont want to go back.. if this is the troubles i have to go thro.. its so not nice k! can i just didnt go back?! hehe.. i dont want to go thro all these....... plz........ kill me!

back to KTT, means limited access to internet, back to study n so on.. i dont like that kind of life style.. but i think i got no choice.. my mind keep asking the same question, n i cant stop it.. did i made the right decision????